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I sometimes hate that I could sleep for hours and wake up and feel worse than ever. Like my body got beat up while I was resting and everything aches, when I breathe it hurts.
Today didn't really start out great. My parents got mad again and sometimes I hate how they think I'm so useless around the house. I know I don't do all my chores and yes my room is a mess and I don't remember the last time I had a good sleep but sometimes I wish that they'd be easy on me.
And not to mention my really crappy report card, I'm a Junior, goddammit. My grades are supposed to be good so colleges will accept me and I don't really wanna think about college right now. Shit lang I'm so stressed with the Speech Choir song I have to fix and English and World History and sometimes I wish that I would stop being so lazy and do it. But I really don't have the mindset to work on anything.
This was such a crappy weekend, especially after Intrams, which was like one of the best events of the year. It was so crappy. Crap crap crap. Like giant crap. Like someone took a giant shit on my life. And there's nothing I can do, right? Right. I just wish I wouldn't feel so crappy. (I kind of wish I'd stop crying every hour or something.)
This day is just not my day. Nothing's ever my day.