journey of self-discovery...or not?

[chancielouise]

I haven't felt very inspired to write anything in here anymore. I don't know why not or even what it is that typically inspires me. I've journaled everyday for the past four years and here I am in Australia "in search of myself" yet with a constant loss of words. I'm not too busy. And it's not that I don't have thoughts running through my head,

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[anonymous]

CHANCIE MY LOVE....i just love reading things you write...it makes me feel less crazy to know my best friend is as mixed up, confused, passionate, and over-analytical as me. Self-discovery...doesn't it seem like thats all we've been talking about for the past year...i feel like my life has just been all over the place this past year, then i go and turn it up-side-down again and quit teaching to move back to venice, VENICE (p.s. thanks for your advice on that...i think i made a good choice). But we DO know who we are, the important core parts anyway. i agree that there will always be self-discovery because we will always be changing...and we SHOULD be. just like our relationship w/christ is always growing and we are always learning new and exciting things about him, so we change as people through that. whats important in my life? what really matters? what am i supposed to do w/my life? with this year? with today? what DOES make me come alive? what am I MEANT to do? I'm not sure there is a definitive answer to any of these--or maybe the answers change--or maybe some things really were absolutely planned a cetain way--i don't know?? I think all we can keep doing is seeking God and His daily guidance...and for people like us...i think we need to remember not to over-analyze the rest and just learn to BE, to LIVE right now exactly as we are with exactly WHO we are right now, all the while growing in HIM and being satisfied with that. ugh i miss coffee talks...and balcony on my apt. talks..and dorm room talks..and, well, just all our talks :-) this would be like an entire night conversation for us!! I'm home from hawaii now...let me know when you're around and we can talk for real!! I'm going to ft. lauderdale tonight and lakeland monday w/mandy to pack up my class...then i guess in between venice and lakeland for a bit before i start subbing in sarasota county. ok...laudry calls (ugh the realities of life sometimes) miss you and love you!!! ~Jenny