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I'm done with finals. Who knows if I passed them, I'm not too confident that I did. I'm getting two grades this semester. Two. And an "Incomplete" in my senior capstone class. I went from being the overachiever in academics, taking 18 hours a semester, to this. What happened to me? Dumb question...I know what happened to me. A part of me wishes it didn't happen, wishes I could wake up one morning and be who I was. But there's another part of me that likes who I am now. A part of me who is using the lessons of this semester to shape my life and future. It's still hard though, I still think about what happened everyday. I still cringe at the sight of you and have to catch my breath because fear and confusion. My mind has stopped spinning, I AM moving on. God is using me where I am, He has not forsaken me. I'm glad I didn't withdraw this semester like some recommended. And I'm glad I decided last Friday that I AM returning next spring. I wanted to run away, get away from my life here, start over somewhere else, become someone else. But then I would be letting you win, and you haven't. You never will. I may be weak but I don't need my own strength when I can fly high on wings like eagles. I am glad to boast in my weaknesses so that the power of Christ may work through me; and since I know it is for Christ's good, I am quite content with my weaknesses- for when I am weak, then I am strong.
I just got an internship at Peace River Center today. Working there is going to be hard, I had to choke back the tears when I talked to the woman in charge about why I want to intern there. But working there is going to be amazing because it's become my passion and it's personal to me. I will be used there and on this campus, I know it.
Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid
...
I'm forced to fake
A smile, a laugh, everyday of my life
But not for long....
I just got an internship at Peace River Center today. Working there is going to be hard, I had to choke back the tears when I talked to the woman in charge about why I want to intern there. But working there is going to be amazing because it's become my passion and it's personal to me. I will be used there and on this campus, I know it.
Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid
...
I'm forced to fake
A smile, a laugh, everyday of my life
But not for long....