Crazy
I think I'm going crazy, or at least mentally meltdown (maybe a shadow priest is melting my face :/ )
Things I've to worry about since last weekend:
1. The requirement is a 20 pages paper for 1 person, 40 pages for 2 people. But I don't even know why I want to challenge myself and I wrote like 40 pages. I did the second and third part of the project, which included a detailed sllyabus and the financial information. I actually enjoy doing the planning, but it's so stressful to do it all by myself, and I'm not suppose to do that because its required only if the group has 3 people. Seriously I'm really going crazy, and I turned it in late because I am a semi-perfectionist.
2. Plane tickets: I've to contact my parents so they can get cheap tickets. At least this part is partially solved. I've got my JFK - OAK JetBlue ticket, I've got my SFO-NRT (Tokyo), NRT-HKG, HKG-NRT-SFO tickets. But I still have to worry about my HKG- PVG tickets once I get to HKG b/c it's much more easier to tickets there. On the other hand, my professor keep asking me when I'll arrive in Shanghai, which I cannot give an answer until like 4 days before my job starts... sigh...
3. Place to live: where am I going to live during my internship in shanghai? The website only allows 14 days bookings. I've been looking everywhere for more information, and it has to be cheap. :/
4. Tax: at least it's done for now.
5. Sleep Deprivation: Sleepless night b/v things keep floating in my mind. I haven't been sleeping normally all this week. An average 1-5 hours sleep per day is not healthy. I know it but I cannot control the schedule.
6. Anti-social: I've been locking myself from the social world: studying alone in the library, not talking to classmates, roommate, professors, and friends, no WoW and online chatings, not answering phone-calls
7. SFS: I was planning to go to the concert tonight, but I've to finish my school work. So I missed their Mahler 10. I'll make it up for tomorrow. I really need to get out of this depressing state tomorrow night.
8. Missing book: I forgot to tell my professor that I can't get hold of the assigned reading for tomorrow. So I'll be 100% un-prepare for a 7 people seminar... >_<
9. other classs' work: the take-home final, presentations for next week, and such...
10. unhealthy food: my meals and eating habits are completely messed up this week. I skipped breakfast and lunch; ate cookies for dinner
11: worried about next semester's housing, job, and class: I don't know where should I start on this subject, it's just very annoying and extremely stressful. So far I found nothing for those 3 categories.
12: No WoW: WoW turned into an essential entertainment form for me unconsciously. I missed my characters and friends there >_<
13. going crazy: there was one point on Monday where I cannot control my hand and focus. I was typing my paper and the sentence I typed does not make any sense at all. I got some headaches and illusions right after and that was the point I decide I need to stop everything (including that day's class) and go to sleep.
14. Shipping stuff, storage: I can store my stuff for the summer in my aunt's house in RI. But she lives in the middle of no-where and she is free on May 6 only. Therefore I have to pack my stuff next week and potentially sleep on the floor from May 6 to May 11. I also have to plan how I'll get my stuff back when the summer is over.
Things I've to worry about since last weekend:
1. The requirement is a 20 pages paper for 1 person, 40 pages for 2 people. But I don't even know why I want to challenge myself and I wrote like 40 pages. I did the second and third part of the project, which included a detailed sllyabus and the financial information. I actually enjoy doing the planning, but it's so stressful to do it all by myself, and I'm not suppose to do that because its required only if the group has 3 people. Seriously I'm really going crazy, and I turned it in late because I am a semi-perfectionist.
2. Plane tickets: I've to contact my parents so they can get cheap tickets. At least this part is partially solved. I've got my JFK - OAK JetBlue ticket, I've got my SFO-NRT (Tokyo), NRT-HKG, HKG-NRT-SFO tickets. But I still have to worry about my HKG- PVG tickets once I get to HKG b/c it's much more easier to tickets there. On the other hand, my professor keep asking me when I'll arrive in Shanghai, which I cannot give an answer until like 4 days before my job starts... sigh...
3. Place to live: where am I going to live during my internship in shanghai? The website only allows 14 days bookings. I've been looking everywhere for more information, and it has to be cheap. :/
4. Tax: at least it's done for now.
5. Sleep Deprivation: Sleepless night b/v things keep floating in my mind. I haven't been sleeping normally all this week. An average 1-5 hours sleep per day is not healthy. I know it but I cannot control the schedule.
6. Anti-social: I've been locking myself from the social world: studying alone in the library, not talking to classmates, roommate, professors, and friends, no WoW and online chatings, not answering phone-calls
7. SFS: I was planning to go to the concert tonight, but I've to finish my school work. So I missed their Mahler 10. I'll make it up for tomorrow. I really need to get out of this depressing state tomorrow night.
8. Missing book: I forgot to tell my professor that I can't get hold of the assigned reading for tomorrow. So I'll be 100% un-prepare for a 7 people seminar... >_<
9. other classs' work: the take-home final, presentations for next week, and such...
10. unhealthy food: my meals and eating habits are completely messed up this week. I skipped breakfast and lunch; ate cookies for dinner
11: worried about next semester's housing, job, and class: I don't know where should I start on this subject, it's just very annoying and extremely stressful. So far I found nothing for those 3 categories.
12: No WoW: WoW turned into an essential entertainment form for me unconsciously. I missed my characters and friends there >_<
13. going crazy: there was one point on Monday where I cannot control my hand and focus. I was typing my paper and the sentence I typed does not make any sense at all. I got some headaches and illusions right after and that was the point I decide I need to stop everything (including that day's class) and go to sleep.
14. Shipping stuff, storage: I can store my stuff for the summer in my aunt's house in RI. But she lives in the middle of no-where and she is free on May 6 only. Therefore I have to pack my stuff next week and potentially sleep on the floor from May 6 to May 11. I also have to plan how I'll get my stuff back when the summer is over.