Frontstage, Backstage
I am going to try to get back on the wagon of posting short snippets or individual thoughts to LJ every day or two, rather than wait until I build up a "whole entry" about some more involved topic. (Three things make a post? as magid says.)
Part of the problem I have here is a natural reluctance to post more than one entry a day. If LJ or DW had an awesome "schedule post" function like WordPress has, I could pre-post five days' mini-entries in a row, and they'd be there. But it doesn't, so I don't. :-/
Facebook, OTOH, is always there for the easy link, embed, share, or micro-post. Oh, Facebook.
Anyway, so here are some thoughts I have been having that I could beneficially put out there:
I have been meaning to re-audition this fall for the Frontstage side of the Blue Hill Troupe -- which is to say, the contingent that gets to be in shows: automatically invited to be in the chorus of the spring's big G&S production, as well as the winter concert series, etc. I've enjoyed being in the Backstage*, and I certainly intend to keep doing stuff (e.g. working on the program layout/design). But the thing is, y'know, the real reason I wanted to be in the group was to sing with people, goddammit.
Only I'm starting to feel a little disheartened and like maybe I might just as well not bother.
Partly this is letdown from not being cast even in the chorus of the Fall show (Grand Hotel). I know that justom says rejection is part of theater and you can never take any one rejection personally, etc. etc., but, really. :-/
And partly it's the fact that, in order to switch sides, I have to have a Backstager sponsor my application, and the people I worked most closely with (on the program stuff) this past year are, perversely, both Frontstagers themselves, and I had asked one of them who said sure... but then I found out only later that instead I need a Backstager, and I've kind of dragged my heels on asking anyone, and now feh. Why even bother? It'd be fun to be in Mikado, which yeah I haven't actually been in a fully staged production of before, but... maybe I should just stick with program design and hanging out and ushering and doing makeup and stuff. Which is likely to be plenty for another year. Especially if I'm already doing synagogue choir from now til January and getting my singing fix in that way?
*The other thing is, the whole Troupe is really as much of a social club (and, as they like to remind us constantly, a charitable organization) as it is a performing group. Which is fine, but when it comes to hanging out on a weekly basis, I normally have things I want to do with my partner on a Saturday night, and I haven't gotten to the socially-connected-enough stage where I want to try and get him to come along to Troupe things. And an additional factor is that, honestly, everything they do seems to cost a bloody fortune, even if it's just hanging out in a bar to play darts after the Saturday set build. I can't afford to go to any more Troupe social activities than I already go to. :-/
Hmmph.
N.B.: Cross-posted from Dreamwidth; click to view or comment on original post.
Part of the problem I have here is a natural reluctance to post more than one entry a day. If LJ or DW had an awesome "schedule post" function like WordPress has, I could pre-post five days' mini-entries in a row, and they'd be there. But it doesn't, so I don't. :-/
Facebook, OTOH, is always there for the easy link, embed, share, or micro-post. Oh, Facebook.
Anyway, so here are some thoughts I have been having that I could beneficially put out there:
I have been meaning to re-audition this fall for the Frontstage side of the Blue Hill Troupe -- which is to say, the contingent that gets to be in shows: automatically invited to be in the chorus of the spring's big G&S production, as well as the winter concert series, etc. I've enjoyed being in the Backstage*, and I certainly intend to keep doing stuff (e.g. working on the program layout/design). But the thing is, y'know, the real reason I wanted to be in the group was to sing with people, goddammit.
Only I'm starting to feel a little disheartened and like maybe I might just as well not bother.
Partly this is letdown from not being cast even in the chorus of the Fall show (Grand Hotel). I know that justom says rejection is part of theater and you can never take any one rejection personally, etc. etc., but, really. :-/
And partly it's the fact that, in order to switch sides, I have to have a Backstager sponsor my application, and the people I worked most closely with (on the program stuff) this past year are, perversely, both Frontstagers themselves, and I had asked one of them who said sure... but then I found out only later that instead I need a Backstager, and I've kind of dragged my heels on asking anyone, and now feh. Why even bother? It'd be fun to be in Mikado, which yeah I haven't actually been in a fully staged production of before, but... maybe I should just stick with program design and hanging out and ushering and doing makeup and stuff. Which is likely to be plenty for another year. Especially if I'm already doing synagogue choir from now til January and getting my singing fix in that way?
*The other thing is, the whole Troupe is really as much of a social club (and, as they like to remind us constantly, a charitable organization) as it is a performing group. Which is fine, but when it comes to hanging out on a weekly basis, I normally have things I want to do with my partner on a Saturday night, and I haven't gotten to the socially-connected-enough stage where I want to try and get him to come along to Troupe things. And an additional factor is that, honestly, everything they do seems to cost a bloody fortune, even if it's just hanging out in a bar to play darts after the Saturday set build. I can't afford to go to any more Troupe social activities than I already go to. :-/
Hmmph.
N.B.: Cross-posted from Dreamwidth; click to view or comment on original post.