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so its been a while since a real one so here i go: dont know where to start. this has been possibly one of the best weeks and one of the worst. so i woke up on monday and i was feelin pretty good. didnt know why but i did. i do my morning ritual and afterwards im like hmmm, todays different. something goods gonna happen. well i got a call from DC and they offered me the internship there! i was pumped then i got a call from denver that they have conditionally accepted me and then a call from SIT that i had been accepted for fall. needless to say i crapped my pants and then saw the "friend" for an amazing night....and twas fantastic. so i called the parentals and thats when the bad started. told them about DC, they want me to stay in cbus for financial/immediate gains. get into several fights with my mom during the week about it. not fun. now i have to decide between DC(and the possiblity of staying there) i mean there is another reason why i want to go to DC and that is for UMD. i dont know if that will respark or whatever but im gonna try. so thats that. in addition i havent told my roommate, in cbus, that i got these offers because i hadnt decided....until 2 nights ago. i decided i am going to dc then im working until next fall then grad school then peace corp. so thats the plan and its pretty much a go. just need to make some calls and find a place to live. so yea. bar crawl on wed/thursday night was awesome. like amazingly awesome. it was a nice whoorah to end with brandon, noah, adam, and myself. i decide to drive home after practice on friday so i can hang with the aunt and uncle and after dinner mom starts yelling at me about DC/peace corp. I love parental support. makes me feel good. saturday we went to the zoo and then the bad really happened. Kristen called so i returned it and we ended up talking for 3 hours. strike that, we ended up fighting for 2 hours and 55 mins. i havent been that shoke up from a fight in a long time. i was shaking...literally. ive never been called a bad person that many times in one night, not even from you jess ;). j/k. so i called sara and just let her calm me down. its weird that after everything, shes still one of 2 people who can calm me down in almost any cirucumstance. put some prospective on the whole situation. i dont like being a bastard to people. its in my nature to be nice and to try to be nice to everything. talking to kristen is like talking to my sister. sara said that i dont need it. i hung up the phone and called the "friend" up and talked to her for about an hour or so. she said pretty much the same thing. so i made a decision to do something ive only done once and it was to my sis, i cut her out. completely. blocked her on everything. i get a text asking about it. i say in plain words its done. she flips her lid and starts calling and texting me....WITH MY FAM IN THE CAR WHILE IM TRYING TO NAP. i hang up the phone(without talking) 3 times. im done with her. as both sara and both jesses said: i dont need that shit. speaking of Jess L, spoke to her today for the first time in about 2 weeks and after my outbursts this past week. i think weve cleared the hump on that and we are heading back towards normal. made the decision to back off because what was happening to kristen. relized that i dont have the right to tell people how to live their life and she knows my opinion. i dont need to keep telling her. so i think ive dropped that. im dreading tomorrow.: brandons leaving for good and i have to talk to noah about the housing situation, call DC to accept, call SIT to defer, call Cbus internship to decline and hope they give it to me in the winter, and go to work so i can talk to Chip to see if i can take a leave of absence....which i know he wont take. hell take the 2 weeks but he wont hire me back. worst part about all fo this is that i really love workin at the grand. i love it so much. the people and the job. its great. like i love it and i love hangin out with them. BUT i am happy about everything that is happening! so i leave this to my faithful readers: sara-keep on keepin on. dont let the nazi get the best of you. jess-chill baby. its all good and plan that vacation. it sounds awesome. i bid the rest of you.....good evening....good night....and good luck.