boo hoo
I can't believe it! School's out and everyone i used to know is graduating. I don't know how to deal with it because the kids who are graduating, i feel like i don't know them anymore sooo i'm in this awkward place. Do i treat it like the other kids and go whatever i don't care or do i bawl my eyes out like i thought i would?
On the bright side i've made new friends and it's awesome! It's happy feelings washing over me and it cheers me up from the friendships that are falling apart. I guess you win some and you lose some. That's a sad way to look at it but really it's not that far from the truth.
I feel like a retard when really, i'm normal, sometimes i forget that i had surrounded myself with over achievers. god damn it another year to go but hey at least i'm going to have more time with my new friends. as for the friendships that i've had a falling out with, i don't know whether i should cut it off now before i get really attached or get close just so i can cry when they leave...
whatever.. the rest of the summer lays out before me and that's enough time to do as i please. i'll figure it as i go, as always. i just wish i didn't have to start out this summer with a bittersweet feeling.
On the bright side i've made new friends and it's awesome! It's happy feelings washing over me and it cheers me up from the friendships that are falling apart. I guess you win some and you lose some. That's a sad way to look at it but really it's not that far from the truth.
I feel like a retard when really, i'm normal, sometimes i forget that i had surrounded myself with over achievers. god damn it another year to go but hey at least i'm going to have more time with my new friends. as for the friendships that i've had a falling out with, i don't know whether i should cut it off now before i get really attached or get close just so i can cry when they leave...
whatever.. the rest of the summer lays out before me and that's enough time to do as i please. i'll figure it as i go, as always. i just wish i didn't have to start out this summer with a bittersweet feeling.