Emotionally drained...
I don't know whether it's the MSG from the Jollibee burger steak...or the fact that I had to cry and worry so much about two people today.
Today, I was finally able to say good bye and thank you to Tito Jong. Even if it was a closed casket, I still felt this strong presence...he was definitely there in spirit. I couldn't help but rush to the comfort room a couple of times to cry. I couldn't take seeing his wife, Ella, and his daughter, Sophie. I really felt for their loss, and so did everybody. And yet, they were still all smiles. It kind of frustrated me that Ella was blooming, and not even a hint of red in her eyes. It made me wonder why she wasn't grieving with tears. Later on that morning, I overheard my Mom talking to Tito Jong's mom. Apparently, the reason why she's been so strong is because she found peace by letting him go. Tito Jong still wanted to fight for his life, even if he knew that he only had a few minutes left to live. Until Ella told him that it's best to just let it go and be in peace. And I guess that's what's keeping Ella strong...it's because they both had that closure.
Right now, it's been hard for me to cope. I mean, my Lola was rushed to the hospital yesterday and they can't seem to find out what's wrong with her. I hope they find out right away. I hope and pray that she'll be alright. I don't think I can bear losing another loved one.
Honestly, I'm really going nuts.
Today, I was finally able to say good bye and thank you to Tito Jong. Even if it was a closed casket, I still felt this strong presence...he was definitely there in spirit. I couldn't help but rush to the comfort room a couple of times to cry. I couldn't take seeing his wife, Ella, and his daughter, Sophie. I really felt for their loss, and so did everybody. And yet, they were still all smiles. It kind of frustrated me that Ella was blooming, and not even a hint of red in her eyes. It made me wonder why she wasn't grieving with tears. Later on that morning, I overheard my Mom talking to Tito Jong's mom. Apparently, the reason why she's been so strong is because she found peace by letting him go. Tito Jong still wanted to fight for his life, even if he knew that he only had a few minutes left to live. Until Ella told him that it's best to just let it go and be in peace. And I guess that's what's keeping Ella strong...it's because they both had that closure.
Right now, it's been hard for me to cope. I mean, my Lola was rushed to the hospital yesterday and they can't seem to find out what's wrong with her. I hope they find out right away. I hope and pray that she'll be alright. I don't think I can bear losing another loved one.
Honestly, I'm really going nuts.