At a loss
As far as livejournal goes.
I guess, I mean - at a loss as of what to post. I'm having a serious who cares moment now.
I don't want to post wedding crap, cause I swear I have more of a life than that, but apparently I don't.
I'm hoping to kick it but I'm sad right now. Lonely and sad. poo pockets.
I had a therapist appointment a few weeks ago, and the bill just came in and with insurance it's over $100 out of pocket and she won't agree to see me every other week, wants to meet weekly which I can't do (time off work every week for a dr appoint? not when 1/2 my anxiety stems from work related issues...that won't help) and now that I got the bill, I am fully aware that therapy is not an option. Not at $100 a week. Just no way. The other pill docs haven't called me back, and honestly - I'm tired of making the calls and getting nowhere. I'm hoping that I can get whatever this is under control but somdays, man is it hard. I had tears before 8 fucking am today and that's not a great way to start your morning....it's not exactly a balanced breakfast.
so yeah. big major blah. big major unhappy with life blah. what i need is a big major slap to the face.
I guess, I mean - at a loss as of what to post. I'm having a serious who cares moment now.
I don't want to post wedding crap, cause I swear I have more of a life than that, but apparently I don't.
I'm hoping to kick it but I'm sad right now. Lonely and sad. poo pockets.
I had a therapist appointment a few weeks ago, and the bill just came in and with insurance it's over $100 out of pocket and she won't agree to see me every other week, wants to meet weekly which I can't do (time off work every week for a dr appoint? not when 1/2 my anxiety stems from work related issues...that won't help) and now that I got the bill, I am fully aware that therapy is not an option. Not at $100 a week. Just no way. The other pill docs haven't called me back, and honestly - I'm tired of making the calls and getting nowhere. I'm hoping that I can get whatever this is under control but somdays, man is it hard. I had tears before 8 fucking am today and that's not a great way to start your morning....it's not exactly a balanced breakfast.
so yeah. big major blah. big major unhappy with life blah. what i need is a big major slap to the face.