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With Eric gone, i got productive and managed to do all loads of laundry AND sew 9 pillow covers for the sofa...it looks so hip right now, it thinks it's in a catalog.
In other not-so-noteworthy news, my mother is coming in on Friday, we're going to see the dress. can you just feel the excitement?
i'm not...I keep waiting to feel something akin to happiness or excitement or just girley giddiness and all I can seem to muster is the general feeling of being judged or not making the 'right' choices.
I missed Lisa driving by because I choose to go to the store and leave the cell plugged in at home (i'm sorry lisa - I suck)
I spent yesterday at my friend Megan's house in Danville pretty much feeling like an out of place loser. came home feeling really bad about the whole day but I couldn't really explain it in any sense making way. Just feeling really disconnected (not like that is new) and kinda down.
I even made cookies but it didn't cheer me up, but they were appreciated at Megan's house so i can put a check mark next to making someone else happy for Sunday.
I hope the week holds something good for me cause right now, I just kind of feel, empty and lonely. I told Eric that he would have a much more active and possibly satisfying social life if he were with someone else 'cause I'm just not good at it.
In other not-so-noteworthy news, my mother is coming in on Friday, we're going to see the dress. can you just feel the excitement?
i'm not...I keep waiting to feel something akin to happiness or excitement or just girley giddiness and all I can seem to muster is the general feeling of being judged or not making the 'right' choices.
I missed Lisa driving by because I choose to go to the store and leave the cell plugged in at home (i'm sorry lisa - I suck)
I spent yesterday at my friend Megan's house in Danville pretty much feeling like an out of place loser. came home feeling really bad about the whole day but I couldn't really explain it in any sense making way. Just feeling really disconnected (not like that is new) and kinda down.
I even made cookies but it didn't cheer me up, but they were appreciated at Megan's house so i can put a check mark next to making someone else happy for Sunday.
I hope the week holds something good for me cause right now, I just kind of feel, empty and lonely. I told Eric that he would have a much more active and possibly satisfying social life if he were with someone else 'cause I'm just not good at it.