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It's been more than eight months since I've written in live journal. So much has changed for me in that time period, it's actually really scary. On May 7 I will turn 23-years-old. This is also the day I am scheduled to graduate from college. And this idea of my entire way of living being forever changed terrifies the hell out of me. It never really dawned on me until last night when I started this internship I am doing for the semester at a local newspaper. I didn't sleep well last night and I expect the same tonight.
The whole day I have just felt empty. My mind has been distracted on this idea of the party/fun times of my life will soon be over, and I will begin the part of life known as the "big fade." Lately I have been infatuated with the movie "Any Given Sunday." Mostly because it's playoff time and the Eagles are so close yet again. But anyway, about the movie. It's definately over the top and a bit much, but there is a scene where Al Pacino's character, who is the headcoach, gives a speech before the big game. He talks of life and of course football,being a "game of inches." That life should be taken one little step at a time, and ultimately happiness is found through doing the little things,the dirty work, the things no one else wants to do. Because adding up all these things will lead to success.
So I have been asking myself am I prepared to do these "little things." I am afraid the answer is no. I feel like my whole life I have always tried to find the easy way around things and now I know what I must do. But will I?
This past weekend Nick Mesaric came to visit me. I haven't had many people from home come to party here at Shippensburg with me. Mostly, if not all because I never invite anyone. But it felt good to have someone from home here. Nick is a good guy, and a good friend. He said he had a lot of fun. We have talked about going on a road trip after I graduate. We would hit up the old Route 66 and travel cross country. It sounds amazing.
The whole day I have just felt empty. My mind has been distracted on this idea of the party/fun times of my life will soon be over, and I will begin the part of life known as the "big fade." Lately I have been infatuated with the movie "Any Given Sunday." Mostly because it's playoff time and the Eagles are so close yet again. But anyway, about the movie. It's definately over the top and a bit much, but there is a scene where Al Pacino's character, who is the headcoach, gives a speech before the big game. He talks of life and of course football,being a "game of inches." That life should be taken one little step at a time, and ultimately happiness is found through doing the little things,the dirty work, the things no one else wants to do. Because adding up all these things will lead to success.
So I have been asking myself am I prepared to do these "little things." I am afraid the answer is no. I feel like my whole life I have always tried to find the easy way around things and now I know what I must do. But will I?
This past weekend Nick Mesaric came to visit me. I haven't had many people from home come to party here at Shippensburg with me. Mostly, if not all because I never invite anyone. But it felt good to have someone from home here. Nick is a good guy, and a good friend. He said he had a lot of fun. We have talked about going on a road trip after I graduate. We would hit up the old Route 66 and travel cross country. It sounds amazing.