Whens my turn??
So here's my life out on the table!
Well soccer is looking pretty good i am really nervous about playing though i know i am a good player but i dont know it seems that whenever i step foot on the field all my skills fly out the door!! i hope that i can improve and truly find myself this year as a soccer player hell i have been waiting 13 years to find so why not this year!! God give me the strength to be the best player and be with me through the season!
Then there is school well the last four years of high school were alright i kinda coasted my way through them these next years i am going to try with all my heart to get good grades and make something of myself i need to quit being the baby of the family and really grow up. I need to find out exactly who and what i want to be!
Friends: well actually for once this is a good thing for me i have some great people in my life right now and i truly hope i keep them dear and close to me, some how i always manage to fuck things up with people who become dear to me!! once again i ask for gods help in keeping them this way!! And for those i have hurt in the past i hope that you can search deep inside of you to forgive the past and help make tomorrow a new friendship!
Money: well money is tight for me right now i know my phone bill is going to be out of this world cause i have been texting as if it were air, cant wait till my father sees that bill. and i have a job but one of my co-workers fucked it up for me and i dont work at all for the next two weeks!! and i really need the money so i dont know what i am going to do.
Love: whats love i honestly wouldnt know its been so long since i have had someone who has been dear to my heart and shared the same feelings with, for some reason one time flings just hurt more than they make you feel good! Funny how that works isnt it. Its kinda sad though love and the happiness of another is around me all the time both my sister are engaged and one is married and are deeply in love and then there is me a hopeless romantic who has no possibilities yet. It breaks my heart when i hear that. And time and time again i find an interest and before i can take a breath to speak the words i wish to say to that one person they are washed away in the words of another. I cant count the countless times that has happened to me. I ask this one question: "Whens it my turn??"
Well soccer is looking pretty good i am really nervous about playing though i know i am a good player but i dont know it seems that whenever i step foot on the field all my skills fly out the door!! i hope that i can improve and truly find myself this year as a soccer player hell i have been waiting 13 years to find so why not this year!! God give me the strength to be the best player and be with me through the season!
Then there is school well the last four years of high school were alright i kinda coasted my way through them these next years i am going to try with all my heart to get good grades and make something of myself i need to quit being the baby of the family and really grow up. I need to find out exactly who and what i want to be!
Friends: well actually for once this is a good thing for me i have some great people in my life right now and i truly hope i keep them dear and close to me, some how i always manage to fuck things up with people who become dear to me!! once again i ask for gods help in keeping them this way!! And for those i have hurt in the past i hope that you can search deep inside of you to forgive the past and help make tomorrow a new friendship!
Money: well money is tight for me right now i know my phone bill is going to be out of this world cause i have been texting as if it were air, cant wait till my father sees that bill. and i have a job but one of my co-workers fucked it up for me and i dont work at all for the next two weeks!! and i really need the money so i dont know what i am going to do.
Love: whats love i honestly wouldnt know its been so long since i have had someone who has been dear to my heart and shared the same feelings with, for some reason one time flings just hurt more than they make you feel good! Funny how that works isnt it. Its kinda sad though love and the happiness of another is around me all the time both my sister are engaged and one is married and are deeply in love and then there is me a hopeless romantic who has no possibilities yet. It breaks my heart when i hear that. And time and time again i find an interest and before i can take a breath to speak the words i wish to say to that one person they are washed away in the words of another. I cant count the countless times that has happened to me. I ask this one question: "Whens it my turn??"