PROBLEMS SUCK!!!!
well today started out ok but something has been lurking inside my mind!! i cant believe what one of my good friends is doing to themselves and when i try to explain myself to them they just get angry and have no way of understanding me and what i am trying to say!! i worry for this person cause i dont want them to do something horrible to themselves!! but they just do things to make me more upset!
I feel that i am over stressed and i just dont know how to deal with it so i eat! and now im upset cause i have gained weight and i keep trying to cut back but i am still stressed so i cant.
My family wont get off my back about not being home enough or not doing enough for them when i slave for them everyday!! and how i am a rude and inconciderate person!! they think i hate them when i spend most of my conversations telling my peers how much they mean to me!! and what fun we have together i think they can be inconciderate and not understanding at times and way selfish. BUt its family and you have to love them and i do.
Valentines day is coming up yet once again and i feel its the worst day ever. It makes, ones like myself, lonely. And single people feel like low pieces of junk who arent worth anything cause they dont have a special someone! it reminds them of the fact that they are lonely and you cant have those special moments.
I am still sick and i want to sing all the time because i am feeling way better but my voice just wont let me and i sound like a dying bird and it kills me that my voice i once had is gone and i want to sing and just cant!! I WANT IT BACK!!!
Tomorrow we play Mountain Pointe who beat us the last time we played them, its the quater finals of the state playoffs and it worries me cause God forbid we lose, my high school soccer season will be over for forever and its the best thing ever!! i love the coaching, the relationships you make with the fellow boys soccer team, and the friendships you make on the team itself! i will treasure these memories for always!!!
My god i hate school its just a burden that i have to deal with durring my ordinary day. i only enjoy 2 of my 4 classes, so i guess 50% is better than 0%. But oh i cant wait to get that diploma and walk down that isle and then drink the next two weeks of my life in celebration and satisfaction!!!
Im scared for college what if it isnt better than highschool? What if i never meet that one man that is the perfect one for me!? what if i have already met him and chased him away and ruined the rest of my life?? No one wants to grow up and be lonely, or unloved. Its a scary thing growing up and i kinda dont want to do it anymore and i just want to go back to when i was 3 and all i cared about was chocolate, candy, and seseame street!! oh and Nija Turtles !!! When life had no meaning and it had no problems. But i guess thats the part that makes you stronger and makes you, you! I hate it but its kinda cool i guess. ITs fun to look back though, and realize how far you really have come and all the amazing,weird, crazy, bad (but fun) things you did. Or the people you have met, made friends with, dated, dont talk to anymore, the ones you wish you could get the guts to talk to again, cause you just want to see how their life is now, or wonder if they ever blink an eye about you again.
I guess this was just an entry that helps me get out my problems and just feel better! sorry if i depressed anyone or made anyone roll their eyes but it had to be done. And i give my thanks to those that make me laugh and help me through these times and love me for me and appreciate me especially(lexi and katie) but....
ON A HAPPIER NOTE!!! COME TO MY GAME TOMORROW!!!!!! 6:00pm at GILBET HIGH FOOTBALL FIELD!!!!!! its gunna be CRACY!!!!! but love to all and wish everyone the best!!
KEEP IT REAL HOMIES!!!!!
I feel that i am over stressed and i just dont know how to deal with it so i eat! and now im upset cause i have gained weight and i keep trying to cut back but i am still stressed so i cant.
My family wont get off my back about not being home enough or not doing enough for them when i slave for them everyday!! and how i am a rude and inconciderate person!! they think i hate them when i spend most of my conversations telling my peers how much they mean to me!! and what fun we have together i think they can be inconciderate and not understanding at times and way selfish. BUt its family and you have to love them and i do.
Valentines day is coming up yet once again and i feel its the worst day ever. It makes, ones like myself, lonely. And single people feel like low pieces of junk who arent worth anything cause they dont have a special someone! it reminds them of the fact that they are lonely and you cant have those special moments.
I am still sick and i want to sing all the time because i am feeling way better but my voice just wont let me and i sound like a dying bird and it kills me that my voice i once had is gone and i want to sing and just cant!! I WANT IT BACK!!!
Tomorrow we play Mountain Pointe who beat us the last time we played them, its the quater finals of the state playoffs and it worries me cause God forbid we lose, my high school soccer season will be over for forever and its the best thing ever!! i love the coaching, the relationships you make with the fellow boys soccer team, and the friendships you make on the team itself! i will treasure these memories for always!!!
My god i hate school its just a burden that i have to deal with durring my ordinary day. i only enjoy 2 of my 4 classes, so i guess 50% is better than 0%. But oh i cant wait to get that diploma and walk down that isle and then drink the next two weeks of my life in celebration and satisfaction!!!
Im scared for college what if it isnt better than highschool? What if i never meet that one man that is the perfect one for me!? what if i have already met him and chased him away and ruined the rest of my life?? No one wants to grow up and be lonely, or unloved. Its a scary thing growing up and i kinda dont want to do it anymore and i just want to go back to when i was 3 and all i cared about was chocolate, candy, and seseame street!! oh and Nija Turtles !!! When life had no meaning and it had no problems. But i guess thats the part that makes you stronger and makes you, you! I hate it but its kinda cool i guess. ITs fun to look back though, and realize how far you really have come and all the amazing,weird, crazy, bad (but fun) things you did. Or the people you have met, made friends with, dated, dont talk to anymore, the ones you wish you could get the guts to talk to again, cause you just want to see how their life is now, or wonder if they ever blink an eye about you again.
I guess this was just an entry that helps me get out my problems and just feel better! sorry if i depressed anyone or made anyone roll their eyes but it had to be done. And i give my thanks to those that make me laugh and help me through these times and love me for me and appreciate me especially(lexi and katie) but....
ON A HAPPIER NOTE!!! COME TO MY GAME TOMORROW!!!!!! 6:00pm at GILBET HIGH FOOTBALL FIELD!!!!!! its gunna be CRACY!!!!! but love to all and wish everyone the best!!
KEEP IT REAL HOMIES!!!!!