The Pleasure and the Pain
This last treatment had me hopeful. After 5 sessions I was hopeful, productive and feeling surges of creativity and inspiration. I started getting headaches though. Terrifying pains that felt like arc-lighting across my brain, but would come coupled with equally fast thought processes.
I designed a schematic chemically interfaced mood-tatoo that could be loaded with graphics and alter in various ways depending on hormone levels, blood composition and temperature. I worked this all out in about 6 seconds including all of the materials that would be useful from current tech and all of the things which would have to be developed and fabricated. Afterwards I almost passed out from the pain.
They took me down several notches in intensity calling those flashes of genius/agony a "side-effect". I honestly didn't mind the pain. I told them as much. It was a small price to pay for the things I was discovering about myself and the things that I was able to do with my mind all of a sudden.
I'm back a bit now to how I was before the treatment. Constantly angry, total lack of desire to move, barely eating. I wish they would up my voltage again. I felt more alive than I have since high school. I felt like I could do anything. Not in a fantastic way, like being invincible or anything like that. I just felt like I could solve any problem that was thrown at me without effort. Maybe sometimes it would drop me to the floor in painful spasms, but any great gift has to have a price, right?
I designed a schematic chemically interfaced mood-tatoo that could be loaded with graphics and alter in various ways depending on hormone levels, blood composition and temperature. I worked this all out in about 6 seconds including all of the materials that would be useful from current tech and all of the things which would have to be developed and fabricated. Afterwards I almost passed out from the pain.
They took me down several notches in intensity calling those flashes of genius/agony a "side-effect". I honestly didn't mind the pain. I told them as much. It was a small price to pay for the things I was discovering about myself and the things that I was able to do with my mind all of a sudden.
I'm back a bit now to how I was before the treatment. Constantly angry, total lack of desire to move, barely eating. I wish they would up my voltage again. I felt more alive than I have since high school. I felt like I could do anything. Not in a fantastic way, like being invincible or anything like that. I just felt like I could solve any problem that was thrown at me without effort. Maybe sometimes it would drop me to the floor in painful spasms, but any great gift has to have a price, right?