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sooo um i jus got home a lil while ago i spent the night at tashz n we hung out all day n went 2 outback 2day...that was fun=] it was sisterly bonding time haha but thats pretty much all i did 2day but ya enough about my dayy...
okayy so is it jus me or what but ive been feeling soo lonely latley like somthing is missing? i jus feel so empty all the time for some reason i dunno i feel like i need someone n i dont no why but ive been having this weird feeling for a while now n it wont go away. I feel all alone like no1 is there for me or ne thing i really dont understand why cuz i have like the best friends ne1 can ask 4 n i love them all butt ughhh somethingg has been bothering me soo much latley n i havent figured it out yet all i no is that something is makeing me feel unwanted n lonley. I feel like no1 wants me or no1 wants 2 come near me n stuff? Its weirdd u no i dont no how 2 explain it cuz sometimes i jus think no1 really understands me like no1 really understands what i deal with n what i go through. Every1 jus thinks im so happy all the time but really im dieingg on the inside n i really need something 2 cure that but what? dont get me wrong i have the best family n friends but its jus that something is missing on me n i need it nowwww!!! cuz thats the only thing that cann helpp me at this timee ahhh i need itt cuz im dieing without it=[ butt for now i guess i*ll jus have 2 keep on searching.
R.I.P Alvin Shina
1/7/05
I no it's been over a month and a half now since youve passed away but for some reason it still hasnt hit me yet. I think about you day and night. Not a day passes where you dont cross my mind. I still dont understand why this happened to you and why so soon. You had your whole life ahead of you. Sometimes i wonder why it was you who had to go so early but that jus brings tears to my eyes=[. All i can do now is remeber all the memories we shared like the fights u got in for me haha those were funny n the water fights those weree funn an all the advice u gave me that i will never forget. You were the best to me i couldnt ask for a better cousin you always looked out for me n cared for me. No matter what you always had my back and i thank you so much for that. I jus wish i could have thanked you instead of acting like i was mad that you would try protecting me n looking out for me when really i appreciated it soo muchh. I just wish i got the chance to thank you for everything cuz u really did so much for me n tell you i love you because i truly do with all my heartM<3. My world will never be the same without you in it. My heart will be broken
okayy so is it jus me or what but ive been feeling soo lonely latley like somthing is missing? i jus feel so empty all the time for some reason i dunno i feel like i need someone n i dont no why but ive been having this weird feeling for a while now n it wont go away. I feel all alone like no1 is there for me or ne thing i really dont understand why cuz i have like the best friends ne1 can ask 4 n i love them all butt ughhh somethingg has been bothering me soo much latley n i havent figured it out yet all i no is that something is makeing me feel unwanted n lonley. I feel like no1 wants me or no1 wants 2 come near me n stuff? Its weirdd u no i dont no how 2 explain it cuz sometimes i jus think no1 really understands me like no1 really understands what i deal with n what i go through. Every1 jus thinks im so happy all the time but really im dieingg on the inside n i really need something 2 cure that but what? dont get me wrong i have the best family n friends but its jus that something is missing on me n i need it nowwww!!! cuz thats the only thing that cann helpp me at this timee ahhh i need itt cuz im dieing without it=[ butt for now i guess i*ll jus have 2 keep on searching.
R.I.P Alvin Shina
1/7/05
I no it's been over a month and a half now since youve passed away but for some reason it still hasnt hit me yet. I think about you day and night. Not a day passes where you dont cross my mind. I still dont understand why this happened to you and why so soon. You had your whole life ahead of you. Sometimes i wonder why it was you who had to go so early but that jus brings tears to my eyes=[. All i can do now is remeber all the memories we shared like the fights u got in for me haha those were funny n the water fights those weree funn an all the advice u gave me that i will never forget. You were the best to me i couldnt ask for a better cousin you always looked out for me n cared for me. No matter what you always had my back and i thank you so much for that. I jus wish i could have thanked you instead of acting like i was mad that you would try protecting me n looking out for me when really i appreciated it soo muchh. I just wish i got the chance to thank you for everything cuz u really did so much for me n tell you i love you because i truly do with all my heartM<3. My world will never be the same without you in it. My heart will be broken