desperation!
help me!! I don't know what I am doing. I am tired of dealing with everything. I feel ike life is slowing and unbearingly going down the drain. I miss being held and comforted. I miss having someone tell me they love me. All I want is to be happy and joyful. I have no where to turn anymore. I made a huge mistake at All-District and last night. I do not what I am supposed to do. I need someone to comfort me and to hold me and tell me everything is going to be alright. Everyone keeps telling me, "God will be there for you. Her loves you and does not want you to hurt!" Well, when was the last time God helped me. Never! I have begged and pleaded with him to help me, and all I have received from Him was a cold shoulder. If he loves me so much then why does not he not at least try to comfort me and make me feel better. All I want is to feel loved! I am tired of being alone. I am tired of feeling sad and depressed. I am tired of when I go to people and look for help they make fun of me and tell me that it is all in my head. I know how i feel and I dont want to feel this way anymore. I miss her, but I do not want to hurt her. I do not know what to do. HELP ME! PLEASE HELP ME!! I just need someone to sit me down, give me some hot coacoa and tell me that all the porblems in my life are going to work out for the better.