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Thrust of Numb
I’ll shoot my veins
With this pain
I’ll sober my sadness
With a few intoxicating drinks
I’ll hold her
Just to let her fall
I’ll stare at her beauty
To turn my face from it
I’ll slit my wrist
And let it drip
Just to taste
That thrust of numb
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I miss Michigan! I have had such tragedy. And then brought back into Michigan to the most wonderful support system. Able to numb myself in alcohol, women and drugs. Sadly I find my numbness in the pain these three things bring. Such superficial pain. I will always let them consume me and distract me from true pain. A half empty bottle of Akwavidt, a slutty girl, a bowl of resin and ash from my cigarette work wonders with grief and lost. But I dont have these things in New Jersey...and I dread my life as these "distractions" dissolve in front of me. And all I left with is an image of my father burning in the back of my mind...
I’ll shoot my veins
With this pain
I’ll sober my sadness
With a few intoxicating drinks
I’ll hold her
Just to let her fall
I’ll stare at her beauty
To turn my face from it
I’ll slit my wrist
And let it drip
Just to taste
That thrust of numb
***********************************************************************
I miss Michigan! I have had such tragedy. And then brought back into Michigan to the most wonderful support system. Able to numb myself in alcohol, women and drugs. Sadly I find my numbness in the pain these three things bring. Such superficial pain. I will always let them consume me and distract me from true pain. A half empty bottle of Akwavidt, a slutty girl, a bowl of resin and ash from my cigarette work wonders with grief and lost. But I dont have these things in New Jersey...and I dread my life as these "distractions" dissolve in front of me. And all I left with is an image of my father burning in the back of my mind...