men... ugh!
update on mr. lukewarm pants aka "the seattle knob" as mindme likes to refer to him
so... i told mr. lukewarm pants last night that i think it's better if we remained friends. instead of trying for a long distance dating thing. he's settling in quite nicely in portalnd and thinking about staying in portland. he actually has an interview with the uc regents in the bay area but he told me he's got a great opportunity with the company that he's at and doesn't think he wants to change jobs again. all the while, he was telling me he misses the bay area and wants to move back but his words and actions don't match up! he was also telling me that it's so much cheaper to buy a home in portland! what am i supposed to say to that? it's not like we have a relationship! i can't make any demands at this point. and i don't want to. if he wants to be with me, he's gotta make the effort to see me. and i feel like he's not taking that extra step. he also brought up the idea of me moving to portland but he knows i won't. he even said that it would be a little different if we were dating for some time beforehand but it's not like that. you know? we have had a brief but turbulent history in the past. so i told him that i'd prefer we be friends because i just can't hang with this long distance thing. and honestly, i am sad but kinda relieved. he feels the same way, i think. sad but relieved, maybe? it's hard to do this with a guy who's in constant transition mode. i told him it was very selfish of him to contact me before he left.
geesh. anyway, that's the update.
so... i told mr. lukewarm pants last night that i think it's better if we remained friends. instead of trying for a long distance dating thing. he's settling in quite nicely in portalnd and thinking about staying in portland. he actually has an interview with the uc regents in the bay area but he told me he's got a great opportunity with the company that he's at and doesn't think he wants to change jobs again. all the while, he was telling me he misses the bay area and wants to move back but his words and actions don't match up! he was also telling me that it's so much cheaper to buy a home in portland! what am i supposed to say to that? it's not like we have a relationship! i can't make any demands at this point. and i don't want to. if he wants to be with me, he's gotta make the effort to see me. and i feel like he's not taking that extra step. he also brought up the idea of me moving to portland but he knows i won't. he even said that it would be a little different if we were dating for some time beforehand but it's not like that. you know? we have had a brief but turbulent history in the past. so i told him that i'd prefer we be friends because i just can't hang with this long distance thing. and honestly, i am sad but kinda relieved. he feels the same way, i think. sad but relieved, maybe? it's hard to do this with a guy who's in constant transition mode. i told him it was very selfish of him to contact me before he left.
geesh. anyway, that's the update.