I DON'T GIVE A FUCK IF YOU GET TO READ THIS.
I know I'm being a bitch and insensitive and all that shit. I know I should be more understanding and patient and whatnot. But I can't. I JUST CAN'T!
Everybody knows I had a thesis to finish. I had agreed to change shifts, even though I knew that the afternoons were the busiest nowadays. I had agreed because it was the right thing to do.
I was and still am pissed off because I had to take the next shift, too. It would've been okay with me during other days, but... I HAVE A THESIS TO FINISH BY TOMORROW MORNING BECAUSE MY INFORMANT IS GOING HOME IN THE AFTERNOON.
She knew about that. It was too damn insensitive of her. She could've refused and asked for a new schedule. She should've made the effort to do something (at least, contact us beforehand) about the situation, especially when she damned knew people can't afford to waste time.
Now, I AM TOO ANGRY TO CONCENTRATE ON MY THESIS. Punyeta!
I DON'T CARE IF SHE DOESN'T GET TO SLEEP. SHE OWES ME THAT, AT LEAST. SHE DARED RISK MY FUTURE, SHE SHOULD SUFFER FOR IT, ALBEIT JUST A LITTLE BIT. Kulang pa nga 'yan, eh. She does not deserve the leniency.
I don't think I can talk to her anytime soon. I will try to be civil, but that's it. I can't pretend that I'm not angry, because I am. I've always been bad in hiding what I really feel.
FUCK THIS! I'M THIS CLOSE TO HATING HER EXISTENCE. UGH.