Why do I even care?
There is a dark cloud filling my mind these days. I think things that I don't usually think and feel things that I wish I didn't feel. I am loosing my faith in the people in my life. I feel like people are loosing faith in me. I struggle to see why I should care. I feel like I am and have been the only one who cares. I feel like I have been shit on and taken for granted. I wish there was a painless way for me to disappear. Everything else seems to be disappearing, so why can't I? I am just so tired. Sad and tired. I don't know where I belong. I don't know where I want to belong. I guess I am really fucking confused. I don't know who or what to believe in anymore. It seems that no matter what I do, my life is destined to be fucked up. I just hate it. I just want to cut to the fucking chase already.