[.oo8] BACKDATED -- Before EpicfightofEpicness
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[Private // 30% Unhackable, Written]
I shouldn't be so afraid to do this.
It's just a visit. She deserves that much. But she is my Other. What will happen? The last time we were so close together
I wish I knew more about this. Roxas seems to be okay, but he's always been much stronger than I am. Just because he hasn't disappeared doesn't mean that I won't.
Before, I wanted to be whole. But, now I just don't know anymore. It seemed inevitable back then. It seemed like it would be better. Here, I actually have a choice. I can go anywhere and do anything I want, except for what the Malnosso won't let me do. I know I'm still a prisoner, but it doesn't feel like it anymore. My world is so much bigger now.
But... evey time I try to walk outside, it feels like someone's going to put a hand on my shoulder and pull me back and say, "No, you're not allowed." I know it's stupid. In my head, I know that that no one's going to stop me, but I still
Is it wrong for me to want this? I'm Nobody. I don't have the right to exist. Is going back to Kairi the right thing to do? Is she suffering? Is she not whole because of me? Or is she just fine? Is she better off without me? She hasn't said anything. She wouldn't. I can't just ask. Is it really okay for me to be? Is there a right thing for me to do?
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[Filtered to Roxas, 20% Unhackable]
Roxas? Do you have time to go to the clinic today?
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