Leap of Faith
I had a grand time yesterday. I hanged out with 3 of my girly friends. Xia(Cya), Anna, and Amber. We watched Anime, eat food, watche more movies. and picked up Xia's Man. Hes black so you knows hes bad ass. lol XD
During the whole time there I was really close to Amber. She would lean her head onto my shoulder, lap, and I would hold her or pet her. It was nice to feel her warmth. Amber is my friend who now I happen to share lunch now cause of my class changing. The year started off with me and the whole group except Amber having B-lunch, and her by herself in A-lunch. I don't know but being with her alone kinda gave me time to bond with her. It was really cold for be cause I have a much lower body tempeture then most people. She would cling to me or just snug up next to me and help to keep each other warm. Thats when I felt it. This sense of happyness and warmth I haven't felt in ages.
(Back to the party) We all decided to play Karaoky (cant spell) again. I did terribly bad caugh I was always on the border line of the pich and couldn't stay low. Once it was Amber's turn. Xia whisper me asking whats going on between us, cause of all the close bonding we been doing all day. She ask me if I liked it. Like the dork I am I kinda giggle and said yes. Im very shy when it comes to this. >< She wanted to tell her how I felt. I said not now. I didnt want to ruin this night. Im a good sport but if I did get rejected. I would just be conflicted with more things in my head and start to stress again and most likly past out. But then Xia started threatening me. X_X I told her I'll do it before I leave.
It was 12:05 and I needed to go home. I said my goodbyes. I hugged Amber and whisper in her ear to come out with me. We sat down and started talking. She was quiet. I asked if Nick and Xia asked her anything about us and she said yes. I told her I liked her and was being alittle goofy with her tring to break the tension. Think I made it worse. Then I talked abit more. She said she wasn't sure yet. I told her "I don't need your answer now, you can tell me later, I don't want to push you into answering so take your time. I hope you tell me soon tho." She said she'll hope she can tell me soon too.
This whole thing is rather new to me. First time I asked a girl out I was sooo totally Rejected and felt crappy the whole summer. This is my second try to tell a girl I like her. This time it went smoother then the first but the answer is still unsure.
I hope she'll say yes. I don't want to be alone and cold, not feeling happy anymore. Maybe she can fill the gap in my heart that I been yerning for, and I hope i can do the same for her too. Just a matter of Taking a Leap of Faith.
I Apologize to had typed sooo much. I tend to keep going alot and I have alot to say lol. I'll stop ^^;;
During the whole time there I was really close to Amber. She would lean her head onto my shoulder, lap, and I would hold her or pet her. It was nice to feel her warmth. Amber is my friend who now I happen to share lunch now cause of my class changing. The year started off with me and the whole group except Amber having B-lunch, and her by herself in A-lunch. I don't know but being with her alone kinda gave me time to bond with her. It was really cold for be cause I have a much lower body tempeture then most people. She would cling to me or just snug up next to me and help to keep each other warm. Thats when I felt it. This sense of happyness and warmth I haven't felt in ages.
(Back to the party) We all decided to play Karaoky (cant spell) again. I did terribly bad caugh I was always on the border line of the pich and couldn't stay low. Once it was Amber's turn. Xia whisper me asking whats going on between us, cause of all the close bonding we been doing all day. She ask me if I liked it. Like the dork I am I kinda giggle and said yes. Im very shy when it comes to this. >< She wanted to tell her how I felt. I said not now. I didnt want to ruin this night. Im a good sport but if I did get rejected. I would just be conflicted with more things in my head and start to stress again and most likly past out. But then Xia started threatening me. X_X I told her I'll do it before I leave.
It was 12:05 and I needed to go home. I said my goodbyes. I hugged Amber and whisper in her ear to come out with me. We sat down and started talking. She was quiet. I asked if Nick and Xia asked her anything about us and she said yes. I told her I liked her and was being alittle goofy with her tring to break the tension. Think I made it worse. Then I talked abit more. She said she wasn't sure yet. I told her "I don't need your answer now, you can tell me later, I don't want to push you into answering so take your time. I hope you tell me soon tho." She said she'll hope she can tell me soon too.
This whole thing is rather new to me. First time I asked a girl out I was sooo totally Rejected and felt crappy the whole summer. This is my second try to tell a girl I like her. This time it went smoother then the first but the answer is still unsure.
I hope she'll say yes. I don't want to be alone and cold, not feeling happy anymore. Maybe she can fill the gap in my heart that I been yerning for, and I hope i can do the same for her too. Just a matter of Taking a Leap of Faith.
I Apologize to had typed sooo much. I tend to keep going alot and I have alot to say lol. I'll stop ^^;;