I finally understand what the words "I need a vacation" mean.

[chainacid]

Lately I've been wondering what exactly it is that I am doing in college. That is to say, why am I even here? I've been becoming more and more apathetic towards school, and the work that I am supposed to be doing here. Is it just the classes that I'm taking, or is it the whole college thing in general? I'm not sure yet. All that I can say is that I

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[atiredmachine]

I hear you. Except I never gave a shit about high school and failed second semester 9th grade English. I used to be a lot more excited about school. And sometimes I still am (but definately not this quarter so much). But then as the quarter goes on I get disapointed as I realize that my hopes of how great the quarter would be prove to be unrealistic.

School does suck up a lot of time. I never have time to do the things I want, and when I do have the time, I don't have the on the spot inspiration. Lately this quarter I've been trying to focus more on doing things I want to do and just doing enough schoolwork to get by. I find myself playing guitar more and I just feel better and I think I'm slowly getting back into the swing of creativity I distantly remember.

And yeah, I think for me atleast school is worth it. I'm learning a lot still. I'd be miserable if I wasn't in school. So I guess it's kind of a lose-lose situation. All you can do is try to make the best of it.

As far as traveling the country goes... this country totally blows. You should visit the world. It's incredible how leaving this continent can expend your horizons--that the world isn't all this way. Doesn't all think this way, doesn't all act this way, doesn't all look this way.