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So, my girlfriend has told me that she's over the just being friends thing. I'm not really sure how I feel about this. I enjoy her company a lot, but I've kind of gotten used to the being alone thing. I don't want to lead her on, but I'm also not sure that I want to be just friends. So when she told me that she was over just being friends, we kissed before she left. I think that the reason that I kind of want to be just friends is that I secretly hope that the other girl that I have a crush on might take notice of me, but I doubt that that would happen. Also, my girlfriend lives farther away than before and we are both pretty busy this quarter, which makes hanging out a bit harder to do. I felt guilty tonight, when we were hangin out, because I felt like I was ditching all of my other friends, and I don't like that feeling. I wonder if I will continue to feel that way in the future. I had originally planned to go hang out with Audra tonight, but my girlfriend came by, and we ended up hanging out, so I felt like I had especially neglected Audra. Decisions are hard for me in cases like these. I fear that my lack of decisiveness will only complicate things further. Any advice on the matter would be greatly appreciated.

Hanging out with kids I don't know

Being quiet in the corner

Feeling akward

Wanting to be social, but unable to fake it

Weezer sing alongs

Butterflies that have withered all away

Poetic retellings, and the guilty times before sleep.