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i dono..if it's just me..but i'm starting to hate "love songs" in genernal right now..i mean i used to lovee them..but now it's just kinda played out in some kinda way...
realitly is hitting me......and it sucks..i blame myself for my own misberbilly....i blame it all on myself on why me and mike ended...it was all my fault...and i hate it...the things people don't know is, i some how cant get him out of my head. some times, i do find myself missing him, some people make mistakes. i really regret some things i done in the past. but one major thing i do regret is.."doing things with out thinking" with out thinking of the consqunes" because thoses are dangours..thats what got me in this mess in the frist place..:( if i could take it back..i wouldnt made such "friends" down here..and just keep to myself..and i think everything would of been "okay" with us. idono..even people i don't know..know of my past..and know how me n mike broke up..news travel fast doesnt it?
and now..there going move in together...when i heard about that.. my heart just stop..i just couldnt belive that... and you know how much i asked mike to move in with me??? but his mom wouldnt let it happen...they wanted "us" to live all under the same roof.. but all of a sudden.."leny n mikey" can live together. i'm just in shock ya know??
mm..somehow..i dont see anybody taking mikeys place in my heart. maby thats why it's so hard to find another "man". infact. if anyone could ever replace mikey. he would have to be "Perfect" but then..i thought mike was so perfect in so many ways..maby if i settle for someone that isnt perfect? hahah
what a JOKEEEE. im kidding myself there. yepp. they would have to be "PERFECT"
there was this one guy...i was kinda intersted in..but BAM!! my shyness kicked in..and he walked away..he was like 10x Better then mike. kinda reminds me of steve that azn kid i try to go on a date with. but i blew him off cause i got tried of him bull shitting me.
of course this is another asian!! XDDD
but with the coolest hair. bleach blonde.
kinda medium built.
tattoo on his arms. he had the old style dragon tattoo on his arms thats what i thought was soo intersting about him...all i know is his name is jimmy?? and he might be a dilvery boy for some company?? or he was at my school to talk to the owner about something??
ahh. oh well. i blew my chance there lol
like i will ever see him again *pouts* unless by chance
he comes by the shcool again. or my chance we run into each other like
the movies hahah.
idk....
realitly is hitting me......and it sucks..i blame myself for my own misberbilly....i blame it all on myself on why me and mike ended...it was all my fault...and i hate it...the things people don't know is, i some how cant get him out of my head. some times, i do find myself missing him, some people make mistakes. i really regret some things i done in the past. but one major thing i do regret is.."doing things with out thinking" with out thinking of the consqunes" because thoses are dangours..thats what got me in this mess in the frist place..:( if i could take it back..i wouldnt made such "friends" down here..and just keep to myself..and i think everything would of been "okay" with us. idono..even people i don't know..know of my past..and know how me n mike broke up..news travel fast doesnt it?
and now..there going move in together...when i heard about that.. my heart just stop..i just couldnt belive that... and you know how much i asked mike to move in with me??? but his mom wouldnt let it happen...they wanted "us" to live all under the same roof.. but all of a sudden.."leny n mikey" can live together. i'm just in shock ya know??
mm..somehow..i dont see anybody taking mikeys place in my heart. maby thats why it's so hard to find another "man". infact. if anyone could ever replace mikey. he would have to be "Perfect" but then..i thought mike was so perfect in so many ways..maby if i settle for someone that isnt perfect? hahah
what a JOKEEEE. im kidding myself there. yepp. they would have to be "PERFECT"
there was this one guy...i was kinda intersted in..but BAM!! my shyness kicked in..and he walked away..he was like 10x Better then mike. kinda reminds me of steve that azn kid i try to go on a date with. but i blew him off cause i got tried of him bull shitting me.
of course this is another asian!! XDDD
but with the coolest hair. bleach blonde.
kinda medium built.
tattoo on his arms. he had the old style dragon tattoo on his arms thats what i thought was soo intersting about him...all i know is his name is jimmy?? and he might be a dilvery boy for some company?? or he was at my school to talk to the owner about something??
ahh. oh well. i blew my chance there lol
like i will ever see him again *pouts* unless by chance
he comes by the shcool again. or my chance we run into each other like
the movies hahah.
idk....