-the beat of my heart-
and the number one question of the day is. "do you miss him?"
i get that every day..and sadly i admit, yes i miss my ex bf mike.
i mean, how can i not? he meant the world to me. i even tryed to date.
but every time i get close. i get scared. or something in my heart..
closes up. and runs and hids. i don't know WHY???!!!!?
all these guys, offer me the world. but sadly i denial them. i don't mean too. i don't want to sound like a picky bitch, but i just havent found the right guy yet, the guy that makes my heart beat, the way (my ex) did, i felt like the world when i was in his arms, i know nothing can be as close as the "love" we once had. but i want some one..close to it.
yeah..there's micky..he's offering to do so much for me..in a way it's scaring me away..and i hate that about myself..i don't even know why im getting so scared about one guy? I BARLY KNOW HIM, that's problly why.
but...
sometimes deep down in my heart. i wish "him and i" would at least give it one more shoot at datting each other but i know that will never happens. "stupid boys"
im just waitting on FATE..to put me in the right direction sometimes....
rawrrr
i know. i know. i shouldnt even be thinking about "stupid mikey" but i can't help my self. i know i should date micky and do the right thing. but my heart doesnt tell me i should yet. there's something out there. but i just don't know yet. intill i run into it again. hmmmm
just havent found the 2nd right guy for me..
okie???!!!
i get that every day..and sadly i admit, yes i miss my ex bf mike.
i mean, how can i not? he meant the world to me. i even tryed to date.
but every time i get close. i get scared. or something in my heart..
closes up. and runs and hids. i don't know WHY???!!!!?
all these guys, offer me the world. but sadly i denial them. i don't mean too. i don't want to sound like a picky bitch, but i just havent found the right guy yet, the guy that makes my heart beat, the way (my ex) did, i felt like the world when i was in his arms, i know nothing can be as close as the "love" we once had. but i want some one..close to it.
yeah..there's micky..he's offering to do so much for me..in a way it's scaring me away..and i hate that about myself..i don't even know why im getting so scared about one guy? I BARLY KNOW HIM, that's problly why.
but...
sometimes deep down in my heart. i wish "him and i" would at least give it one more shoot at datting each other but i know that will never happens. "stupid boys"
im just waitting on FATE..to put me in the right direction sometimes....
rawrrr
i know. i know. i shouldnt even be thinking about "stupid mikey" but i can't help my self. i know i should date micky and do the right thing. but my heart doesnt tell me i should yet. there's something out there. but i just don't know yet. intill i run into it again. hmmmm
just havent found the 2nd right guy for me..
okie???!!!