the price of a double life

[chahotopinkus]

i feel like a shock absorber, if i have one fault its that i love too much and that im too loyal. sounds good right?!?! wrong. i realized lately that when my friends are in pain i just jump in and try to ease theirs with out even thinking about it. ive always done it, just never noticed it. if i become your friend , like a true friend then you have my loyalty too the end. i may not die to save you but if you are on a sinking ship i will stay with you instead of getting off and i would defend you to the death. but i feel other's pain so deeply that it becomes my own and then slowly i release it. but still ive got it and its mine to carry around. right now im fine its just that ive got all this extra pain im carrying around that im not my usual chipper self, and every one has noticed. but when they ask whats wrong there is nothing to tell them, its not mine and its not mine to tell.

lots of love, shannon

ps. kent were are you????

"I admire he; The Knight who has the Courage to be Weak, and The Knight who has the Patience to Wait"