Pissed off*

[chae_bug]

Hey you all guess what i just got done talkin to some people and i found out what Boone really thinks about me* Yeah he thinks i look like a mother effin troll and that i am childish and immature.. and that he just dated me for so long is because he felt sorry for me.. and he told people that he hated me.. Im sorry, but, if he hated me and didnt love me then he wouldnt have stayed with me so damn long. i mean it is so effin stupid.. i dont get this shit.. but, he never had the effin balls to say it to my face, he has to go and tell other people ( knowin that it would get back to me ) but, all i can fuckin say .. is Fuck Him!! I mean yeah i really did love him.. i was so in love with him.. it was hard to sleep at night.. cuase, i was thinkin about him so much.. bt, obviously he dont care.. so Why in the hell should i ?? I mean c'mon.. if he wants to call anyone childish and immature .. its him for sayin all that stupid shit! i dunno.. but, he needs to stop runnin his mouth.. it pisses me off so so bad* i just want to go up to him and say listen her you stupid mother effer.. you are nothin but, a fat ass liar and you need to keep your mouth shut.. but, you know i am nice to him and i am tryin to be his friend* but, if he is gonna say all that stupid shit.. i dont even see why in the hell i am tryin.. i know some of you all understand what i am goin throught.. I really and truley loved himwith all my heart and much more.. but, you know i guess the feelin isnt so mutual .. No is it?? guess not. but, ohh the fuck well!! you know.. he thinks that he is a bigshot and can get any girl that he wants.. but, i got fuckin news for him ((HE Cant)) all he is is a lil fuckin prick.. i mean.. i hate bein mean like this.. but, i will be damned if i am gonna sit back and let someone treat me like that..he made me think that he really cared for me.. and that he really wanted to spend the rest of his life with me.. but, what the fuck ?? you dont sit there and call people names if you really love them* so , i guess he never really loved me in the first place.. but, ohh well. if he wasnt happy he should have broke up with me sooner.. instead of fuckin leadin me on like that.. that us so fuckin stupid!!*I swear to god.. if i wasnt so nice about it and didnt want to be mean to him.. i would seriously take all of his shit back to him and just tell him to forget about it.. and when he sees me to not even look my fuckin way.. i fuckin hate the shit he does to me.. i mean it breaks my heart that he feels that way.. but, it pisses me off that he cant say it to my face..and you know.. the worst thing about it was.. that he fuckin broke up with me the day before valentines day.. and the next fuckin day.. he had a g/f .. i dunno.. it just rerally gets to me that he moved on that quick.. after 4 fuckin years of a commited relationship.. it was always Lauren -and- Boone.. noone knew no other.. i mean we made it throught some really rough times.. only becuase, our love for each other was so stromg.. but, i could never ever bring myself to say that u hate him..Cuase, i do love him and i will love him till the day that i die.. nothin will ever change that.. he was my fisrt love.. and the one i thought would last but, i gues i was wrong?* but,

Boone- I want you to know i will always love you no matter what happens.. you were the one.. ((I thought)) but, once again.. i was wrong.. but, i do love you .. you were my first love.. I dunno how you could bring yourself to say all that shit about me.. but, whatever you know!! its your life .. its your feelings.. but, mine will never change.. no matter what happens in life.. you can sit there and say that you hate me and that you never loved me.. but, i know better than that shit.. but, whatever you feel.. i know you will always love me and i will always love you no matter what.. you were honeslty the best thing that had ever happend to me.. i love you with all my heart, and i always will no matter what* I love you Daniel Keith Mullins.. *august 28,2001*

Welp, you all i think i am out.. cuase, i am gonna go clean for my momma.. leave me some comments* Please!!*
Love you all :)