Sometimes....just sometimes...........
you FEEL like you wanna give up in areas of your life....and i know this happens on a regular basis...like clockwork almost...if u were not human, you would not deal with this. The animals have it so good, right? They are not as complex! Oh yea, anyways....
How many times even when you are truly walking where you are supposed to be...do ya feel like GIVING UP! I can count a number past my hands & feet...to how many times i've felt like this in the past few years. This is really the MOST amazing journey i've had so far in my life.
I say so far, because I know life has only begun for me...since i "woke up".
There is a difference in living day to day...w/ hopes & dreams...and "doing" that job that pays the bills that u don't really hate and don't really love, but you go there day in & out...and just dream.
Then, there is LIVING the dream. Therein lies the most wonderful ups & downs you could EVER have. Once you to come to one of MANY places in life where you have your assignments...your dreams for that season...coming to pass...and then here comes doubts, frustrations, negativity, alone-ness, depressions and more.
Let me just say...giving me the "christian" answer don't cut it. LOL!!! Oh, just truuuust God, Jesus' blood covers everything. NO, that doesn't do it for me. BE FREAKIN REAL with me. I am not a robot! I have feelings, I have frustrations just like everyone else! I deal with jealousy, passion, sadness, happiness! yes! I'm alive because of these things!
I thank God for being ALIVE!!!!
I love the fact that I have wonderful ppl in my life that know how to be real, talk to me in plain terms...and help me through my battles! Itz awesome.
I just love i'm in the PROCESS of living daily dreams...accomplishing dreams almost every day...being fulfilled, being satisfied...sometimes feel like giving up, and as soon as I do....someone pops into my life and reminds me...what i'm here for.
I love it.
Because itz not about me, itz about God...and it is about YOU. :)
So here I am, for you....:)
anyways..............
i just wanted to write that up tonite....
I love sharing, no matter how weird or crazee things come out...
I like being me, and I like learning & growing.
I like growing in confidence. :)
sanku
veddy much.
lata!