Missing My Man
Haven't seen my man since last sunday..i could of seen him monday but he said we could just both kick it at our houses so we could get things done and stuff..plus he said i'd been having to drive alot lately because..see he lives about almost a hour away from me..and i'd been going out there and everything..so then i had to work and stuff then thurs i wasn't feeling good at all i woke up and all of a sudden my throat was hurting hadn't hurt the night before or anything i went and looked at my tonsils in the mirror and they were blackish looking and swollen up really big..my tonsils are big anyways but when they swell up i can barely breath/talk ..so i got scared because they hadn't ever looked like that,and i wasn't coughing or anything they were just infected and i've had trouble with my tonsils since i was a little kid..well i called in thurs..and went to the doc and everything i had to get 2 shots ..one was steroids and it was a whole lot and really thick my hip still hurts from it..but i got some medicine and all..well i noticed that my baby had called me i had got a voicemail earlier from him but my phone hadn't showed it and i checked it and it was matt telling me to have a good day and all and i had called him back before i went to the doc and told him i wasn't feeling good at all and then he told me that after he had stopped at his new work place..after fillin out some paper work he had decided to come surprise me at work and he stayed a hour waiting on me to come in and i never did ..cuz i had called in and when he told me that i felt really bad for not going to work ,hah..and he told me to not worry about it..he's such a sweetie and well for the rest of the day we stayed on the phone together..he'd call me an check on me..i'd call him..
well yesterday he was going to have to go to his work place to get his uniform and so he said if i wanted i could meet up with him and he could come out to the house an meet my mom i said sure..well later on he called and told me he wasn't going to be able to that we'd have to reschedule bc he wasn't feeling good he had started feeling sick and i said alright..well last night he called me while he was hanging with his boss cuz he had came back to town..he was wantin to know directions to my house said he was coming out ..and then he called me back after i was already done getting ready and almost out the door..telling me that he was sorry and happy he got me before i left that..a friend called and he needed matt and all..and i sort of got ticked..not mad at him or mad at his friend just ..its just that i wanted to see him ya know i had been tryin to see him and i had my hopes up and then now because of a friend needing him..i couldn't see him but i didn't argue w/him because i didn't wanna start any problems between us..i mean i know he couldn't help his friend needed someone to talk to or whatever..and he told me that when it comes to family or friends needing help that he's always there and he said if you needed me baby u know i'd be there for you and i said i know..and he asked me if i was mad at him and i said not mad..i just miss you honey and this is the 2nd time i thought i was going to get to see you today..and im not getting to,and then he started crying..and i felt really bad an then he asked me if it was okay if he told me something..and i got scared and told him of course he could tell me..and then he told me that he loved me..and he said he was so scared and that he's never cared for someone as much as he cares for me this early in a relationship before and i told him i loved him back and he asked me if i meant it and i said yes i really do and i said i really care a whole lot about him and then he told me that he was scared to tell me ..scared i would run away..and i told him i would never do that...and then he asked if he could call me later and all that..i said yes of course an i waited an it was bout 7:30 when we got off the phone and at nearly 10 p.m. i called him..and i checked on him made sure everything was okay and then he said it was and we talked for a while and everything
..and then today same thing ..today was his first day at his new job he was supposed to work 3:30-8 ..he called me earlier and we talked and i asked him if i could be there when he got off work an then us go do something and he said yes it'd be cool he didn't have plans..well then he called me at 7 something after again i had already got ready and was fixin to go out the door..and he said that we were going to have to reschedule he said that they were makin him work over and i asked how much over..and he said til bout 10:30 and i said well ok an he said if he's off tomorrow maybe we can go do something an wanted to know if sunday if i wanted to have dinner with his family..meet his dad..and i said of course i want to..
and again i'm not mad at him..i just miss him..i knew it would sorta be hard to see him but with both of us workin its going to be xtra hard to see him but i'm willing to give it my all..i'm not losing a real good man..i've never had someone treat me as good as my matt does before.
well yesterday he was going to have to go to his work place to get his uniform and so he said if i wanted i could meet up with him and he could come out to the house an meet my mom i said sure..well later on he called and told me he wasn't going to be able to that we'd have to reschedule bc he wasn't feeling good he had started feeling sick and i said alright..well last night he called me while he was hanging with his boss cuz he had came back to town..he was wantin to know directions to my house said he was coming out ..and then he called me back after i was already done getting ready and almost out the door..telling me that he was sorry and happy he got me before i left that..a friend called and he needed matt and all..and i sort of got ticked..not mad at him or mad at his friend just ..its just that i wanted to see him ya know i had been tryin to see him and i had my hopes up and then now because of a friend needing him..i couldn't see him but i didn't argue w/him because i didn't wanna start any problems between us..i mean i know he couldn't help his friend needed someone to talk to or whatever..and he told me that when it comes to family or friends needing help that he's always there and he said if you needed me baby u know i'd be there for you and i said i know..and he asked me if i was mad at him and i said not mad..i just miss you honey and this is the 2nd time i thought i was going to get to see you today..and im not getting to,and then he started crying..and i felt really bad an then he asked me if it was okay if he told me something..and i got scared and told him of course he could tell me..and then he told me that he loved me..and he said he was so scared and that he's never cared for someone as much as he cares for me this early in a relationship before and i told him i loved him back and he asked me if i meant it and i said yes i really do and i said i really care a whole lot about him and then he told me that he was scared to tell me ..scared i would run away..and i told him i would never do that...and then he asked if he could call me later and all that..i said yes of course an i waited an it was bout 7:30 when we got off the phone and at nearly 10 p.m. i called him..and i checked on him made sure everything was okay and then he said it was and we talked for a while and everything
..and then today same thing ..today was his first day at his new job he was supposed to work 3:30-8 ..he called me earlier and we talked and i asked him if i could be there when he got off work an then us go do something and he said yes it'd be cool he didn't have plans..well then he called me at 7 something after again i had already got ready and was fixin to go out the door..and he said that we were going to have to reschedule he said that they were makin him work over and i asked how much over..and he said til bout 10:30 and i said well ok an he said if he's off tomorrow maybe we can go do something an wanted to know if sunday if i wanted to have dinner with his family..meet his dad..and i said of course i want to..
and again i'm not mad at him..i just miss him..i knew it would sorta be hard to see him but with both of us workin its going to be xtra hard to see him but i'm willing to give it my all..i'm not losing a real good man..i've never had someone treat me as good as my matt does before.