New routines and the magic of camcorders
I haven't the time for a big update because work is calling and I actually want to go. Heh.
So, I still fight with my lows, as I expected to, but I'm finding myself stronger all the time and, instead of settling for a few changes, I throw myself against my cage with new changes every time I feel like I'm losing momentum. I have developed a bit of a workout routine as of late for my mornings and evenings before bed and I got my digital HD camcorder for my birthday that's coming up and I've been spending time recording things, though I had the urge to just film everything, I resisted in favor of saving my efforts for things i really want to film. I'm sure I'll break down from time to time and start filming random nonsense, but that might turn out to be awesome as I continue to learn this video editing software. I stayed up until 2AM playing around with this climbing video I've been working on. It's great stuff and it helps with the early mornings that, before, I didn't know what to do with since I quit the drugs and alcohol side of my life...well, I cut WAY down on the alcohol, anyway. What?! Everyone needs at least ONE vice. Life is tough and a nurtured spirit doesn't always get me through a day. Maybe one day, but not yet, I'm not yet strong enough to face everything with complete sobriety, but I rarely drink now and, when I do, it is seldom to extremes or with the intention to get drunk. I find happiness even in my troubles, though it is not always as easy as that sounds and I still think that it sounds hard. I guess it all stems from a belief that life has a consciousness and love. I just can't make the fact that humans evolved for the mere survival of life make sense to me when I see that man stands closer to destroying life than furthering its propagation. Why would life evolve something as unstable and unpredictable as emotion? Wouldn't a flawless robot make more sense? We're all just biological machines, but I am no robot.
Anyway, that's all I have time for, I must be away.
Later, friends.
So, I still fight with my lows, as I expected to, but I'm finding myself stronger all the time and, instead of settling for a few changes, I throw myself against my cage with new changes every time I feel like I'm losing momentum. I have developed a bit of a workout routine as of late for my mornings and evenings before bed and I got my digital HD camcorder for my birthday that's coming up and I've been spending time recording things, though I had the urge to just film everything, I resisted in favor of saving my efforts for things i really want to film. I'm sure I'll break down from time to time and start filming random nonsense, but that might turn out to be awesome as I continue to learn this video editing software. I stayed up until 2AM playing around with this climbing video I've been working on. It's great stuff and it helps with the early mornings that, before, I didn't know what to do with since I quit the drugs and alcohol side of my life...well, I cut WAY down on the alcohol, anyway. What?! Everyone needs at least ONE vice. Life is tough and a nurtured spirit doesn't always get me through a day. Maybe one day, but not yet, I'm not yet strong enough to face everything with complete sobriety, but I rarely drink now and, when I do, it is seldom to extremes or with the intention to get drunk. I find happiness even in my troubles, though it is not always as easy as that sounds and I still think that it sounds hard. I guess it all stems from a belief that life has a consciousness and love. I just can't make the fact that humans evolved for the mere survival of life make sense to me when I see that man stands closer to destroying life than furthering its propagation. Why would life evolve something as unstable and unpredictable as emotion? Wouldn't a flawless robot make more sense? We're all just biological machines, but I am no robot.
Anyway, that's all I have time for, I must be away.
Later, friends.