A Beautiful Letdown.
I swear, Iron Chef (the original, not the Alton Brown-hosted bland-generic version they've created for American tastes) makes anything look good. I'm in the middle of watching the Yellowfish battle with Chef Morimoto and gah, and I'm not much of a fish person, but the stuff they makes looks so edible.
I wish the rest of me could be fooled so easily. The past couple of weeks have been generally blah. I guess it for me it had to do with the reality of 2006, this return to the normalcy of "life." Sometimes it feels like when the sun comes up, it shines a light that makes true colors come through.
I really think I might not be making sense, but I will go on. I've been kind of struggling with relationships with people. Not just anyone in particular, but more in the general, big picture sense of things. There's lots of thinking going on in this head of mine. All these people around me and it's complicated how I feel inside. Work, letdown. Friends, letdown. Family, letdown.
I mean, it's nothing new though. I'm not freaking suprised. I'm used to getting let down. To feeling alone. It's alright. It's fine. I see others going through some kind of struggles too, and I don't know what to say. It's dumb because sometimes the best thing you can ask isn't what you want.
The people you love the most can hurt you the most. To truly love is to not want to hurt them back. As for me, I've learned to accept the pain and learn from it. I mean, what the heck can you really do about it? It makes you stronger in the end anyway.
You'd think I would have been smarter this time around. It's all good though. I mean through anything, ad majorem dei gloriam. That's for the greater glory of God, yo.
Stupid Iron Chef. Now I'm craving some sashimi and fried tofu.
I wish the rest of me could be fooled so easily. The past couple of weeks have been generally blah. I guess it for me it had to do with the reality of 2006, this return to the normalcy of "life." Sometimes it feels like when the sun comes up, it shines a light that makes true colors come through.
I really think I might not be making sense, but I will go on. I've been kind of struggling with relationships with people. Not just anyone in particular, but more in the general, big picture sense of things. There's lots of thinking going on in this head of mine. All these people around me and it's complicated how I feel inside. Work, letdown. Friends, letdown. Family, letdown.
I mean, it's nothing new though. I'm not freaking suprised. I'm used to getting let down. To feeling alone. It's alright. It's fine. I see others going through some kind of struggles too, and I don't know what to say. It's dumb because sometimes the best thing you can ask isn't what you want.
The people you love the most can hurt you the most. To truly love is to not want to hurt them back. As for me, I've learned to accept the pain and learn from it. I mean, what the heck can you really do about it? It makes you stronger in the end anyway.
You'd think I would have been smarter this time around. It's all good though. I mean through anything, ad majorem dei gloriam. That's for the greater glory of God, yo.
Stupid Iron Chef. Now I'm craving some sashimi and fried tofu.