Dependance

[chadchamplin]

This entry is mainly do to the fact I can't sleep. WHAT POWERS YOU ASK! So i was talking to Tracy about my recent actions with Jesus and Liz. Truth be told I like liz ,but i belive that her and jesus would be for the best. She told m i was stupid;That i was creating drama. I just wanted to talk to her becuase i felt kinda sad after doing it. Not really some life changeing stuff. I just felt kinda lonely.So this started her on the whole dependant thoughts. Beliveing that i am very dependant emotionaly, because i wanted to talk to her about it. Truth be told i think i wanted to just talk to her about anything, becuase i hadn't all week and i was starting to miss her. !|!|!!*.* A S A F R I E N D *.*!!|!|! She always used to be kind to me and loveing. For some reason now she seems to hate me. Or she talks to me as heartless as possible. Now that saddens me now dose that make me emotionaly dependant? So i brought up how i thought she was still missing something in life, true friends. I know that pissed her off. I din't want it to but i'm prone to such mistakes of missing fine details. So i guess the question for the night my friends is " IS Chad Champlin mature in all manners of life?". Also tracy i want you know i don't this to be some violtion of your privacy. I'm just confused on this crazy path we call life. But unforantely everytime i talk about it you it makes you mad and your my friend. I don't want my friends pissed at me. So i go here and ask them. Because you were always my frist choice;you know me so well. So i din't copy your words;i never mentioned your words. Only the general disscusion one i want to continue here and now. Maybe going through this formal process will help get both of are opoions down without the confenation. That inculdes all of my friends. Anyways besides all that my life has been swell. Been busy been bored most of the part i've been happy. I think in my quest to become a good person i've made good steps in the right process. AS far as amtgard goes i've made some steps into becomeing a better fighter. Also i think i almost killed my self fighting out there the other day. I'm still tired but i can't sleep :(
oh well right! I'll sleep when i'm dead. Also sorry if i've hurt anyones feelings I want to make it up to you. WHEN YOUR HIGH ABOVE THE MUCKY MUCK! SO REMEBER

YOU CAN WUSS OUT!

YOU CAN PUSS OUT!

OR YOU COULD FUCKING G OUT !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

- Scruffy VON FUCKING DORATH