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you know the part of movies/books/etc. where the character has a total reality check and everything gets put into propective and is typically accompanied with sappy inspirational music? well i had that today. and it was definatly needed.
so the past week or so i've been just completly overwhelmed with life. and not having enough time to do everything i want to do and still have time to do the things i need to do like sleep and eat. i've been so tired all the time, and am getting weaker and weaker. i can't even go up a flight of stairs without being out of breath. after doing the scene change between act 1 and 2 i keep getting all dizzy and light headed and just need to lay down.
i tried talking to my mom last night and all she said was that i need to stop doing so much with my friends. which i know makes sense. but thats what keeps me going, gives me something to look forward to, the time when i dont feel like i'm wasting away. she did let me stay home today though, catch up on my sleep and my homework and just take a break.
it was POURING and around one i finally got out of bed and took a shower and i looked outside and the rain just looked so inviting. i figured. i'm already wet. why not? i went on my roof. and just sat there. in the rain. for about an hour. and then i went downstairs and stood in the street and spun around and around and around. that only lasted about a minute. because i got dizzy. but it felt like everything suddenly got put into perspective. just for that little amount of time.
but now i'm feeling like i just wasted an hour and a half doing nothing. and i still have to do my core thing, and my science animation and i only have an hour until i have to be back at school for tech. o well. it was good for me.
i still feel liberated.
*The beauty's in the trees not the glass windows*