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Yeah, so I changed my layout. Blake made the background <3 Things with us have been up and down. I feel kinda insane and unstable at the moment. Im not used to that. My feelings have been getting to me a lot lately and I hate it. Im stressed out beyond belief and I think I just might shatter into a million pieces if I don't get away from this place. Im dying to leave Ypsi and some of the people in it, I want to start over someplace where no one knows me and I just want to keep it that way. I'd rather not be stabbed in the back again by people who are supposed to be my friends. All I really need is my family and Blake...I don't need to go out with my friends every weekend and party to be content and I think people take too much for granted these days, along with myself at times. I've realized it though and im trying to become a better person from it. Im looking more at the littler things in life that make me smile, like watching a movie with my father and laughing with him, or cuddling up next to Blake when im cold. By the way, you probably noticed I deleted my Myspace, because it's pretty much a waste of time and far too much of a popularity contest i'd say, thx.
I decided to start cleaning my room today because Blake is coming over. Only 2 more days till our 8th month <3 It doesn't even feel that long really. But that is a good thing. There will be plenty more to come. So as I was cleaning I came across my "memory box" yeah lame, but anyways, I looked through it and there were old pictures of Raina, Brittany and I from elementary school and middle school and I was just like wow, I never thought I would miss those days so much. Now it's like we aren't even a "team" anymore and we went in seperate directions, at least that's how I see it now. I miss the way things used to be, not only with them but everyone. I just wish there could be one day where we could all get together at the park like we used to. I would feel so complete. It sucks because now I know it's all gone and I didn't cherish it while it lasted. Lately i've been wanting to go to this place I went to a long time ago. It was in the woods and I remember sitting down on a big stone when it was almost getting dark and I was next to a stream with a small waterfall, and I was just kinda looking at the stars and I remember I felt like everything I was worried about just lifted off of my shoulders. It sounds cliche but i've never felt like that before. It sucks that I don't even remember where this place is anymore. Im glad I have Symphony In Peril, Norma Jean, and Darkest Hour to listen to though, they seem to always take me there whenever I listen to them which is probably why I love them so much.
Gosh this is a huge entry but I guess I just kinda needed to let some stuff out. Blah...
I decided to start cleaning my room today because Blake is coming over. Only 2 more days till our 8th month <3 It doesn't even feel that long really. But that is a good thing. There will be plenty more to come. So as I was cleaning I came across my "memory box" yeah lame, but anyways, I looked through it and there were old pictures of Raina, Brittany and I from elementary school and middle school and I was just like wow, I never thought I would miss those days so much. Now it's like we aren't even a "team" anymore and we went in seperate directions, at least that's how I see it now. I miss the way things used to be, not only with them but everyone. I just wish there could be one day where we could all get together at the park like we used to. I would feel so complete. It sucks because now I know it's all gone and I didn't cherish it while it lasted. Lately i've been wanting to go to this place I went to a long time ago. It was in the woods and I remember sitting down on a big stone when it was almost getting dark and I was next to a stream with a small waterfall, and I was just kinda looking at the stars and I remember I felt like everything I was worried about just lifted off of my shoulders. It sounds cliche but i've never felt like that before. It sucks that I don't even remember where this place is anymore. Im glad I have Symphony In Peril, Norma Jean, and Darkest Hour to listen to though, they seem to always take me there whenever I listen to them which is probably why I love them so much.
Gosh this is a huge entry but I guess I just kinda needed to let some stuff out. Blah...