not good enough...
well lately i think it's been pretty stressing. water polo is going tough cuz i don't think the girls like me for some reason there i don't know of. and i think this for really good reasons on how they've been acting and doing. school is stressing since grades are about to be wrapped up for report cards and i'm trying my best for all of these things. i haven't been sleeping much and leah is mad at me bcuz she likes jeffrey and apparently jeffrey likes me. so she hasn't been talking to me for a bit more than a week. i feel bored in school lately even though i try my best to make it interesting. and so far it seems no matter the case or what it feels like everything i do isn't good enough. like it doesn't matter. i haven't been seeing camilo that often, and not cuz i don't want to but cuz i can't and stuff. and the whole court thing, it was rescheduled again to may 2. this summer is my cousin's wedding in nicaragua and i don't know if it will interfere with duel enrollment or the court. this week feels like it's going to be crazy. and water polo games aren't going good cuz the girls don't know what they're doing and i know becuz i see them before i go in to play. so when i go in and do things the way it's supposed to i get yelled at cuz i'm doing something different which is the right thing but they wouldn't know. my body aches, i'm tired, and it seems that a lot of ppl aren't liking me. why is it no matter what school or area or group or anything i go to, ppl at the end seem to find a reason to not like me anymore. the water polo girls used to love me, now they barely talk to me or ask me to go places. leah was the first friend i made in this school and she hates me. it just really never is good enough. i try to do my best in school and my mom looks at the bad things bcuz that's what she's used to i guess. if i got an A she would look at the other grade. i give up. ok enough me whining about my problems, i'm out of here and do more damn hw.
*~cherry
*~cherry