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[ch4ng1ng_r1v3r]

when we first
said "hello"
all those years ago
i never thought
we would ever talk
again much less walk
close to each other.

i never even wondered,
as i wandered
through those years,
that we could possilby
share the same key
to one another.

but now i'm here
and i know you're near
and i can't help but
worry that maybe i'm wrong
and this lovely song
that i'm hearing
is possibly just my wish
and may shatter like a dish.

when you look back
did you think it would stack
into this large pile
that threatens to fall and
suffocate us in its sand?

or is this just me
being too far into this thing
that might not be anything
just a dream of my own?

but if it's just a dream,
then why is there a gleam
in my eyes from these tears
of frustration and feelings
of being lost in these dealings?

if this were a dream
should i not be able to just reach
over and maybe even teach
you how i feel?

i'm so lost in this storm
of thoughts that i can't even form
a complete idea about
everything that could be nothing
and nothing that could be everything.

so please, i beg
that you'll just stand near
and tolerate until it's clear -
this confusion in my mind.

i know that i love you
but then i'm unsure as to
which way i mean that.

so please just be kind
and let me unwind
this ball of thread and emotion
before it falls apart
and lays open before your heart.

i know you don't know that
i'm having these thoughts but
thank you for not trying to shut
me out while i'm odd
because i know you must sense it
this thing that's been lit