im becoming
everything ive always hated,
or atleast somthing that my old life just wont exept
the world treats me like shit and im either just noticing or im a selfish bastard
part of me is say, i listen to everyons bullshit but when its time for me to need someone its a huge hassle. nobody is here for me anymore, my friends , my family, my love there to busy with themselves to wake up and see how fucked up im becoming. the other part of me is saying that all of this is an illusion, im creating as i go, the anger people have towards me ,the not caring of anyone, abby not loving me anymore.
ive been fighting with myself for awhile tonight and the only thing ive gained out of it was a need, more of a wanting to actauly be somthing because that seems to be the only time when people want to be around me, when im succseful when im not fucking up.
im not perfect and neither are anyof you
wake me up ive always said
but now i think im awake
the alarms been going off for three hours
and the worlds still dead asleep
maybe there dreams will bring them bliss but there closed eyes scare me
or atleast somthing that my old life just wont exept
the world treats me like shit and im either just noticing or im a selfish bastard
part of me is say, i listen to everyons bullshit but when its time for me to need someone its a huge hassle. nobody is here for me anymore, my friends , my family, my love there to busy with themselves to wake up and see how fucked up im becoming. the other part of me is saying that all of this is an illusion, im creating as i go, the anger people have towards me ,the not caring of anyone, abby not loving me anymore.
ive been fighting with myself for awhile tonight and the only thing ive gained out of it was a need, more of a wanting to actauly be somthing because that seems to be the only time when people want to be around me, when im succseful when im not fucking up.
im not perfect and neither are anyof you
wake me up ive always said
but now i think im awake
the alarms been going off for three hours
and the worlds still dead asleep
maybe there dreams will bring them bliss but there closed eyes scare me