home
so glad to be home finally. i just love doing what i want to do and sleeping in my own bed. i even got to go to my favorite restaraunt yesterday. definitely sweet. and i got my hair weaved again and trimmed, because i am still very scared of going any shorter and i am actually thinking about growing it out more. we'll see.
but the weirdest thing has been how lonel i feel. i dont know why but i just feel so alone. i was up until 3am last night simply because i was thinking too much and couldnt sleep.
i had told my mom all about what happened with dave any everything. i mean i am glad that that is over because i now know that it would have never lasted. but what if nothing ever does. what if i never end up with anyone. i mean my mom was married for almost six months now at my age. and i think about it all the time.
i just never felt lonely with dave. i always knew that i had someone. i mean i have my friends and all, but that kind of relationship is so much different. thats when you know someone likes you enough to be with you and want to be with you all of the time. i just miss playing around and laughing. i just want someone who makes me laugh. i wonder if i am ever going to get that.
how can you be so lonely when you are surrounded by people who you love and who love you back unconditionally?
but the weirdest thing has been how lonel i feel. i dont know why but i just feel so alone. i was up until 3am last night simply because i was thinking too much and couldnt sleep.
i had told my mom all about what happened with dave any everything. i mean i am glad that that is over because i now know that it would have never lasted. but what if nothing ever does. what if i never end up with anyone. i mean my mom was married for almost six months now at my age. and i think about it all the time.
i just never felt lonely with dave. i always knew that i had someone. i mean i have my friends and all, but that kind of relationship is so much different. thats when you know someone likes you enough to be with you and want to be with you all of the time. i just miss playing around and laughing. i just want someone who makes me laugh. i wonder if i am ever going to get that.
how can you be so lonely when you are surrounded by people who you love and who love you back unconditionally?