my feelings

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you know when u have that dream that your falling and you don't hit bottom. i had that dream reoccuring last night. each time i felt as if i was getting closer to the bottom. but it didn't feel like i was falling to my death, but something warmer and i don't know what it is. ive had a lot of emotions bottled up inside that are raging inside my head wanting to get out but if they fdo they may scare the ones i love or even worse hurt the ones i love. the wolf is out and he was tame for once it was weird. ive know him to hurt people especially me, but he didn't he was stopped like a little puppy dog. i was like what the heck. he was in a dream to last night he found this woman or girl dressed all in black and stood by her side. then morphed. he changed into me. then i held this girl who ever she was in my arms and kissed her cheek she cried for thankfulness and i woke up. so many emotions so many dreams. how do u tell the ones u love the right things. i don't want to scare them away. well yesterday was boring because it snowed but i talked to nicki and jess and jennell who brightened up my day and that was my day. i just woke up with a nose bleed. i have to babysitt luke and thomas today. my little rugrats they're cute. have to call nicki give her directions for tomorrow. Answer me this what happens when u want to hold someone but ur not sure if u can. My good friend alex tried commiting suicide yesterday i stopped her again. i miss her because shes in Peru with her mother but she wants me to move on to different girls and i am but i will always keep alex near to me. my depressed feelings are still raving in side just like the wolf( for u who know what i mean by that)
well time to get ready for babysitting bye all love u forever
chris