Suitcases chapter 26
Chapter 26
Sian pov
I had spent the night at Laura’s once, 3 weeks ago. I told her I wanted to take it easy and go slow, so we put the sex a bit on hold after that night. she was coming over again tomorrow night though, only to sleep so technically I wouldn’t be breaking any rules. To think of it Sophie still owes me a question. My mind was rambling as Sophie came into the room all dressed up.
“You look smart” I said to her as she smiled blushing a bit. “Where you off to.” I asked her as she shuffled her feet. “Uhm doctor’s appointment, I know you’re supposed to come with me but I knew you were working and I couldn’t reschedule…. I’m sorry” she said honestly as I smiled. “Well lucky for you I took the afternoon off” I said as she started beaming. “Great” she murmured. “Okay let’s go then, I’ll drive” I said as she followed me.
“So how’s the shop going” Sophie asked me as I was pulling out of the driveway. “Yeah it’s definitely going alright” I said as she narrowed her eyes. “Why are you lying to me” she asked as I sighed deeply not wanting to admit my defeat. “Alright…. It’s not going that great, if I don’t pull my act back together I might….” I said swallowing my words. “I might lose the shop Soph” I said as my voice broke. Sophie gasped knowing how much that shop meant to me.
“But how? What happened” she asked as I clenched my fingers around the steering wheel. “Sian” she said sternly as I sighed. “I just haven’t been spending as much time in it as I should” I stated as she frowned. “Why not” she asked me as I sighed once more. “Soph… some things are just more important” I stated as she furrowed her brows. “Like what” she replied. “Like you know… ughh Sophie, I just I …. Like you know the kids and…you” I said quietly as she frowned angrily. “What? Sian you can’t lose the shop because of me…. wait do you even have the afternoon off” she asked as I pursed my lips. “Sian” she said angrily. “Okay pull over and switch seats with me, I’m dropping you off at work and then I’m going to the hospital” she said sternly as I shook my head.
“No” I said quietly. “Sian you just said you might lose the shop, why are you being so stubborn” she asked me. “Sian?... For fuck sakes, you’re losing something that so important to you and…” she started rambling as I cut her off. “I almost lost you….okay! I almost lost you and I’m not taking that chance again, even if it means losing summit else in the process” I said to her as she sighed.
“I’m sorry” she murmured as I took my eyes off the road and looked at her. She was looking down with her hands in her lap. I let one hand leave the steer wheel and put my hand on her, squeezing it. “I just know how much that shops means to you, that’s all” she stated as I smiled. “You mean more to me though….but you’re right that shop means a lot to me….you remember when I found out I got to keep it” I sniggered as Sophie chuckled. “Yeah” she laughed.
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“Soph are you home” I yelled into the apartment as I saw her coat hanging on the kitchen chair. I quickly diverted my gaze to the living room and saw her sitting at her desk with her headphones on. She was studying again, I never understood how she could study with loud music blasting into her ears. I quickly made my way over to her pulling off her headphones and started kissing her neck feverishly.
“Sian” she chuckled. “I missed you” I said as I snaked my hands around her shoulders from behind. “I missed you too baby, but I… Jesus Sian ….I have to study and I Ooooh my…” she started breathed as I grinned against her skin knowing I was turning her on. “Ugh fuck it” she muttered as she turned around embracing me in a passionate kiss. I let my tong roam on hers as she got up pushing me backwards as we both fell on the couch behind us. “Soph” I breathed as she was kissing my neck already tugging on my shirt. She removed my shirt and bra in a swift movement as she was straddling me.
“Fuck me” she whispered looking down at my breasts as I grinned. “Always babe” I said as I pulled her down on me. “Take your clothes off” I said as she did as asked. I moaned as her breasts collided with me. Her hard nipples brushing against my skin, only turning me on even more. “God I love you” I whispered as she pulled up my skirt removing my knickers in the process. She was kissing her way up my leg while massaging my breast as she finally reached her destination. She lapped her tong against my center as I groaned tangling my hands in her hair. I was buckining my hips, yearning for more connection as I felt her tong circling the swollen button that was begging to be touched. “Sophie” I almost shouted as she found a steady rhythm. “Oh baby” I moaned as she inserted to fingers joining the same rhythm. She curled her fingers inside of me pushing me closer to the edge as my eyes shut open. I felt the pleasure ripple through me as she started quickening her pace, curling her fingers more often. I finally fell over the edge moaning loudly as I came all over her. I felt her lick up all my juices as I rode out my orgasm. “Fuck…that was amazing..God I love this day” I breathed as I felt her kissing her way up my body finally reaching my lips. “Hi” she grinned as I echoed. “Hi” smiling at her.
“So not that I don’t like this way of saying ‘hi honey I’m home’ but is there a particular reason you attacking me.” she sniggered as I started laughing. “What is it” she smiled as she wrapped her hands around my waist pulling me closer.
“Well uhm…. you know Linda right” I asked her as she nodded. “Course I do, she’s your boss” she stated as I started giggling. “What is it” she asked me grinning suspiciously. “Well she’s moving to Japan, she won… God this sounds ridiculous but she won the lottery” I stated as Sophie stared at me in shock. “Omg Sian, what does this mean …..oh god did you lose your job? Babe no I’m so sorry, you love that job…” she started rambling as I kissed her. “I haven’t lost my job… you could say I’ve been upgraded” I grinned widely as Sophie’s brows furrowed showing her confusion. “Babe she left me the shop….I’m now the proud owner of ‘Corner Petals’” I said proudly as Sophie jolted up. “What?” she shouted happily.
“Are you serious” she asked bewildered as I nodded making her laugh. “That’s….eeeeeeeeeh Sian” she started laughing as she pulled me into a hug causing us to roll of the couch. “Soph” I screeched as we fell to the ground sending us both into a fit of giggles. “I love you” I breathed as she kissed my lips tenderly. “I’m so happy for you” she stated as I hugged her once more.
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“Are you nervous” I asked her as we were waiting in the waiting room. “A bit… I mean I’ve had a couple of chemo sessions…they’ve been trying for more than 3 months now… I just I hope it’s not bigger” she whimpered as I pulled her into me. “Whatever happens we’ll get through it alright” I asked her as she breathed in shakily trying to hide her tears. “Hey… don’t ever hide from me… it’s me remember, I can read you like a book. You don’t have to hide your tears from me” I said to her as she nodded.
“I know” she stated quietly as the door flung open. “Sophie Webster” the voice murmured as I gripped her hand leading her to the doctor’s office.
“Ah Sophie, Sian please take a seat.” Dr. Moonings stated as we sat down. I was still holding on to Sophie’s hand when he started talking.
“We’ve had 6 cycles of chemotherapy so far, I know you’ve been waiting patiently for your results of progress and here they are.” he said as I squeezed her hand. “The cancer has decreased around your bladder, which is good news, it means the treatment is working” he smiled as I felt relief hit my body. He showed us the X-rays stating where the cancer used to be, but isn’t no longer.
“Unfortunately it isn’t all good news I’m afraid…Because of your latest infections and interventions a small tumor has developed around your left ovary.” He said as I looked at Sophie who seemed terrified. “We can try to reduce it with drugs, but with this type of tumor surgery is recommended” he stated as I breathed in slowly trying to take everything in.
“What does this mean exactly” I asked him as he replied. “We’ll have to remove her… your ovary, it’s best not to leave it too long, we’ll have to schedule the surgery as fast as possible” he stated as I looked at Sophie again. She hadn’t said anything the whole time we were here. “I’m sorry, could you give us a minute” I asked him. “Certainly” he said as he walked out leaving us by ourselves.
“Soph…say summit” I said to her as she started sobbing quietly. “It’s okay…shhh it’s gonna be okay” I said as I made her climb on my lap. She put her head in my neck and cried softly. “I’m scared Sian” she said to me as I was rubbing her back. “I know… so am I, but I’ll be here with you every step of the way I promise” I said as she looked at me in pain.
“Do you want this surgery…we can always try the drugs, that way they won’t have to remove your ovary” I said to her as she sniffed. “Do you really think that’s the best idea” she asked me as I sighed. “I don’t know Soph, it’s up to you” I said to her.
“That wasn’t my question…what do you think I should do” she asked me as I looked down to the floor. “I would do the surgery…. Whenever I see you after you’ve had the therapy… I just, I can’t see you in that kind of pain” I said honestly. “If they take my ovary I might not be able to have kids anymore…well less chance anyways” she stated as I hugged her. “I know” I whispered as the doctor came back inside. Sophie got off my lap and sat in the chair next to me.
“We’ll do the surgery” Sophie said holding my hand. “Alright… I have an opening in 2 weeks” he stated as she nodded. “Now before we make any decisions, I have to tell you all your options” he said as he started telling us about the drugs and then later about the surgery.
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“Are you okay” Sophie asked me in the car on the way back home. “Yeah…I just…you could die on the surgery table” I stated as she sighed deeply. “I know” she muttered. “Look let’s just have a nice evening and cook a nice meal…. Let’s just forget about it for just a second” she stated as I nodded.
Sophie pov
“I can’t help but think of Jess when I watch this” Sian said as we were watching Lady and the tramp with the kids. “Yeah, those silly Disney nights we all seemed to love” I chuckled quietly as I leaned in the couch closing my eyes for a second. “Are you okay” She asked me as I opened my eyes. I nodded at her as she shuffled closer to me. “I’ll always be here for you, you know that right” she said as I lay my head on her shoulder. “Yeah I know” I muttered quietly as a song started.
“Oh this is the night, it's a beautiful night. And we call it bella note. Look at the skies, they have stars in their eyes. On this lovely bella note. Side by side with your loved one, You'll find enchantment here.The night will weave its magic spell,When the one you love is near! Oh this is the night, and the heavens are right! On this lovely bella notte!”
The song echoed in the room as I looked at Sian who seemed to the same thing as me. “I love that song” she whispered as I nodded. “Me too…” I breathed as I got closer to her, she didn’t seem to fight me when I leaned in and kissed her slowly. The minute she kissed me back butterflies erupted in my stomach and I remembered what I promised myself. I quickly pulled out watching Sian with her eyes still closed. “Sorry” I whispered as she opened her eyes, she pursed her lips and sighed. “Me too, I’m sorry you’re right we shouldn’t have done that” she stated nervously as I looked back at the screen. “Soph” she whispered. “Let’s just watch the movie ay” I smiled at her as she smiled back nervously.
As the movie credits rolled of the screen I noticed Sian had fallen asleep along with the kids. I made my way to my bedroom trying to find a blanket for them but I couldn’t find one. I carefully opened the guest room where Sian was sleeping in to find a blanket. I breathed in the smell, Sian’s smell and I felt like 1 year back…back where that scent was everywhere. I sighed sadly as I reached for her wardrobe, finding a blanket on the top shelf. As I pulled down the blanket I pulled down Sian’s bag with it, discarding it off all its stuff. “Shit” I muttered as I tried to put everything back in. I came across a big envelope with the name of a law firm written on the back. I frowned and opened it carefully. I felt the lump in my throat grow as I read the content.
‘Divorce settlement’
Sian pov
I had spent the night at Laura’s once, 3 weeks ago. I told her I wanted to take it easy and go slow, so we put the sex a bit on hold after that night. she was coming over again tomorrow night though, only to sleep so technically I wouldn’t be breaking any rules. To think of it Sophie still owes me a question. My mind was rambling as Sophie came into the room all dressed up.
“You look smart” I said to her as she smiled blushing a bit. “Where you off to.” I asked her as she shuffled her feet. “Uhm doctor’s appointment, I know you’re supposed to come with me but I knew you were working and I couldn’t reschedule…. I’m sorry” she said honestly as I smiled. “Well lucky for you I took the afternoon off” I said as she started beaming. “Great” she murmured. “Okay let’s go then, I’ll drive” I said as she followed me.
“So how’s the shop going” Sophie asked me as I was pulling out of the driveway. “Yeah it’s definitely going alright” I said as she narrowed her eyes. “Why are you lying to me” she asked as I sighed deeply not wanting to admit my defeat. “Alright…. It’s not going that great, if I don’t pull my act back together I might….” I said swallowing my words. “I might lose the shop Soph” I said as my voice broke. Sophie gasped knowing how much that shop meant to me.
“But how? What happened” she asked as I clenched my fingers around the steering wheel. “Sian” she said sternly as I sighed. “I just haven’t been spending as much time in it as I should” I stated as she frowned. “Why not” she asked me as I sighed once more. “Soph… some things are just more important” I stated as she furrowed her brows. “Like what” she replied. “Like you know… ughh Sophie, I just I …. Like you know the kids and…you” I said quietly as she frowned angrily. “What? Sian you can’t lose the shop because of me…. wait do you even have the afternoon off” she asked as I pursed my lips. “Sian” she said angrily. “Okay pull over and switch seats with me, I’m dropping you off at work and then I’m going to the hospital” she said sternly as I shook my head.
“No” I said quietly. “Sian you just said you might lose the shop, why are you being so stubborn” she asked me. “Sian?... For fuck sakes, you’re losing something that so important to you and…” she started rambling as I cut her off. “I almost lost you….okay! I almost lost you and I’m not taking that chance again, even if it means losing summit else in the process” I said to her as she sighed.
“I’m sorry” she murmured as I took my eyes off the road and looked at her. She was looking down with her hands in her lap. I let one hand leave the steer wheel and put my hand on her, squeezing it. “I just know how much that shops means to you, that’s all” she stated as I smiled. “You mean more to me though….but you’re right that shop means a lot to me….you remember when I found out I got to keep it” I sniggered as Sophie chuckled. “Yeah” she laughed.
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“Soph are you home” I yelled into the apartment as I saw her coat hanging on the kitchen chair. I quickly diverted my gaze to the living room and saw her sitting at her desk with her headphones on. She was studying again, I never understood how she could study with loud music blasting into her ears. I quickly made my way over to her pulling off her headphones and started kissing her neck feverishly.
“Sian” she chuckled. “I missed you” I said as I snaked my hands around her shoulders from behind. “I missed you too baby, but I… Jesus Sian ….I have to study and I Ooooh my…” she started breathed as I grinned against her skin knowing I was turning her on. “Ugh fuck it” she muttered as she turned around embracing me in a passionate kiss. I let my tong roam on hers as she got up pushing me backwards as we both fell on the couch behind us. “Soph” I breathed as she was kissing my neck already tugging on my shirt. She removed my shirt and bra in a swift movement as she was straddling me.
“Fuck me” she whispered looking down at my breasts as I grinned. “Always babe” I said as I pulled her down on me. “Take your clothes off” I said as she did as asked. I moaned as her breasts collided with me. Her hard nipples brushing against my skin, only turning me on even more. “God I love you” I whispered as she pulled up my skirt removing my knickers in the process. She was kissing her way up my leg while massaging my breast as she finally reached her destination. She lapped her tong against my center as I groaned tangling my hands in her hair. I was buckining my hips, yearning for more connection as I felt her tong circling the swollen button that was begging to be touched. “Sophie” I almost shouted as she found a steady rhythm. “Oh baby” I moaned as she inserted to fingers joining the same rhythm. She curled her fingers inside of me pushing me closer to the edge as my eyes shut open. I felt the pleasure ripple through me as she started quickening her pace, curling her fingers more often. I finally fell over the edge moaning loudly as I came all over her. I felt her lick up all my juices as I rode out my orgasm. “Fuck…that was amazing..God I love this day” I breathed as I felt her kissing her way up my body finally reaching my lips. “Hi” she grinned as I echoed. “Hi” smiling at her.
“So not that I don’t like this way of saying ‘hi honey I’m home’ but is there a particular reason you attacking me.” she sniggered as I started laughing. “What is it” she smiled as she wrapped her hands around my waist pulling me closer.
“Well uhm…. you know Linda right” I asked her as she nodded. “Course I do, she’s your boss” she stated as I started giggling. “What is it” she asked me grinning suspiciously. “Well she’s moving to Japan, she won… God this sounds ridiculous but she won the lottery” I stated as Sophie stared at me in shock. “Omg Sian, what does this mean …..oh god did you lose your job? Babe no I’m so sorry, you love that job…” she started rambling as I kissed her. “I haven’t lost my job… you could say I’ve been upgraded” I grinned widely as Sophie’s brows furrowed showing her confusion. “Babe she left me the shop….I’m now the proud owner of ‘Corner Petals’” I said proudly as Sophie jolted up. “What?” she shouted happily.
“Are you serious” she asked bewildered as I nodded making her laugh. “That’s….eeeeeeeeeh Sian” she started laughing as she pulled me into a hug causing us to roll of the couch. “Soph” I screeched as we fell to the ground sending us both into a fit of giggles. “I love you” I breathed as she kissed my lips tenderly. “I’m so happy for you” she stated as I hugged her once more.
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“Are you nervous” I asked her as we were waiting in the waiting room. “A bit… I mean I’ve had a couple of chemo sessions…they’ve been trying for more than 3 months now… I just I hope it’s not bigger” she whimpered as I pulled her into me. “Whatever happens we’ll get through it alright” I asked her as she breathed in shakily trying to hide her tears. “Hey… don’t ever hide from me… it’s me remember, I can read you like a book. You don’t have to hide your tears from me” I said to her as she nodded.
“I know” she stated quietly as the door flung open. “Sophie Webster” the voice murmured as I gripped her hand leading her to the doctor’s office.
“Ah Sophie, Sian please take a seat.” Dr. Moonings stated as we sat down. I was still holding on to Sophie’s hand when he started talking.
“We’ve had 6 cycles of chemotherapy so far, I know you’ve been waiting patiently for your results of progress and here they are.” he said as I squeezed her hand. “The cancer has decreased around your bladder, which is good news, it means the treatment is working” he smiled as I felt relief hit my body. He showed us the X-rays stating where the cancer used to be, but isn’t no longer.
“Unfortunately it isn’t all good news I’m afraid…Because of your latest infections and interventions a small tumor has developed around your left ovary.” He said as I looked at Sophie who seemed terrified. “We can try to reduce it with drugs, but with this type of tumor surgery is recommended” he stated as I breathed in slowly trying to take everything in.
“What does this mean exactly” I asked him as he replied. “We’ll have to remove her… your ovary, it’s best not to leave it too long, we’ll have to schedule the surgery as fast as possible” he stated as I looked at Sophie again. She hadn’t said anything the whole time we were here. “I’m sorry, could you give us a minute” I asked him. “Certainly” he said as he walked out leaving us by ourselves.
“Soph…say summit” I said to her as she started sobbing quietly. “It’s okay…shhh it’s gonna be okay” I said as I made her climb on my lap. She put her head in my neck and cried softly. “I’m scared Sian” she said to me as I was rubbing her back. “I know… so am I, but I’ll be here with you every step of the way I promise” I said as she looked at me in pain.
“Do you want this surgery…we can always try the drugs, that way they won’t have to remove your ovary” I said to her as she sniffed. “Do you really think that’s the best idea” she asked me as I sighed. “I don’t know Soph, it’s up to you” I said to her.
“That wasn’t my question…what do you think I should do” she asked me as I looked down to the floor. “I would do the surgery…. Whenever I see you after you’ve had the therapy… I just, I can’t see you in that kind of pain” I said honestly. “If they take my ovary I might not be able to have kids anymore…well less chance anyways” she stated as I hugged her. “I know” I whispered as the doctor came back inside. Sophie got off my lap and sat in the chair next to me.
“We’ll do the surgery” Sophie said holding my hand. “Alright… I have an opening in 2 weeks” he stated as she nodded. “Now before we make any decisions, I have to tell you all your options” he said as he started telling us about the drugs and then later about the surgery.
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“Are you okay” Sophie asked me in the car on the way back home. “Yeah…I just…you could die on the surgery table” I stated as she sighed deeply. “I know” she muttered. “Look let’s just have a nice evening and cook a nice meal…. Let’s just forget about it for just a second” she stated as I nodded.
Sophie pov
“I can’t help but think of Jess when I watch this” Sian said as we were watching Lady and the tramp with the kids. “Yeah, those silly Disney nights we all seemed to love” I chuckled quietly as I leaned in the couch closing my eyes for a second. “Are you okay” She asked me as I opened my eyes. I nodded at her as she shuffled closer to me. “I’ll always be here for you, you know that right” she said as I lay my head on her shoulder. “Yeah I know” I muttered quietly as a song started.
“Oh this is the night, it's a beautiful night. And we call it bella note. Look at the skies, they have stars in their eyes. On this lovely bella note. Side by side with your loved one, You'll find enchantment here.The night will weave its magic spell,When the one you love is near! Oh this is the night, and the heavens are right! On this lovely bella notte!”
The song echoed in the room as I looked at Sian who seemed to the same thing as me. “I love that song” she whispered as I nodded. “Me too…” I breathed as I got closer to her, she didn’t seem to fight me when I leaned in and kissed her slowly. The minute she kissed me back butterflies erupted in my stomach and I remembered what I promised myself. I quickly pulled out watching Sian with her eyes still closed. “Sorry” I whispered as she opened her eyes, she pursed her lips and sighed. “Me too, I’m sorry you’re right we shouldn’t have done that” she stated nervously as I looked back at the screen. “Soph” she whispered. “Let’s just watch the movie ay” I smiled at her as she smiled back nervously.
As the movie credits rolled of the screen I noticed Sian had fallen asleep along with the kids. I made my way to my bedroom trying to find a blanket for them but I couldn’t find one. I carefully opened the guest room where Sian was sleeping in to find a blanket. I breathed in the smell, Sian’s smell and I felt like 1 year back…back where that scent was everywhere. I sighed sadly as I reached for her wardrobe, finding a blanket on the top shelf. As I pulled down the blanket I pulled down Sian’s bag with it, discarding it off all its stuff. “Shit” I muttered as I tried to put everything back in. I came across a big envelope with the name of a law firm written on the back. I frowned and opened it carefully. I felt the lump in my throat grow as I read the content.
‘Divorce settlement’