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Of all the places I'd thought I'd be, I never thought I'd be here. There is nothing wrong with this place. Its just different, Not what I thought, not what I wanted, nto what I needed? All of the above or maybe even none of the above.
Facebook is not working for me. It's being used as a spying tool, a way for people to keep track of me, a way for me to spy on others. Its not what I want.
Somewhere along the way I lost things I thought were important and gained things that truely are. For example? My life. My ability to see things how they really are. To know what and who are really important. And to cherish the ones you love. My losses? My mother? I mean she is not dead but she might as well be. My old "Life" if you could call it that. I made many many many mistakes based on a foundation that wasn't real. It bothers me now to know how I acted and the choices that I made pre-divorce. I don't even know if thats how I would classify it. I just regret how niave I was but I'm not even sure thats it either. I want things to be different, but at the same time no. What I want are people to be different but if wishes were horses we'd all be eating steak.
I need to use this. I don't know if I will share this with family. It would be nice to get feedback and have friends on here, but where do I go when I need to think about their drama?
Facebook is not working for me. It's being used as a spying tool, a way for people to keep track of me, a way for me to spy on others. Its not what I want.
Somewhere along the way I lost things I thought were important and gained things that truely are. For example? My life. My ability to see things how they really are. To know what and who are really important. And to cherish the ones you love. My losses? My mother? I mean she is not dead but she might as well be. My old "Life" if you could call it that. I made many many many mistakes based on a foundation that wasn't real. It bothers me now to know how I acted and the choices that I made pre-divorce. I don't even know if thats how I would classify it. I just regret how niave I was but I'm not even sure thats it either. I want things to be different, but at the same time no. What I want are people to be different but if wishes were horses we'd all be eating steak.
I need to use this. I don't know if I will share this with family. It would be nice to get feedback and have friends on here, but where do I go when I need to think about their drama?