just thinking...
K, so I haven't said much here lately, about my thoughts etc. So, my cousin Mel, she lives in Calgary...and she said something to me a few months back when I told her I was thinking of going out there, that I can stay with her if I want!
So, here's my thoughts....Dean, I won't put any pressure on you...if you want me, I'm yours....if you want me in Edmonton with you...I'm there....but if I don't feel right about it....then maybe I'll move to Calgary then. I've been to both city's....and yes, Edmonton doesn't have a whole lot to offer me...entertainment wise. It's that general area I think I want to be in....mostly for the travelling. Ontario, kinda bores me....I've checked out all I want to check out. Now, I want to see Alberta....BC....Saskatchwan. Can't do that from here. Do I want this thing with Dean to work out...hell yes! Do I think it will? Who knows. I just know, where ever I move to, I want there to be people I care about, and who care about me, around. Ontario, I have all the people here....Edmonton, I have Dean...Calgary, I have Mel, Wes, and Jill. But in either Edmonton, or Calgary...it's only a few hour drive from the other.
I was watching a show sometime (sadly, I think Dr Phil) and he told a girl, make a desision...live with it for a week, and see how you feel. Well...I've done that...and here's how I feel...
1) scared....it's a big change...
2) a little apprehensive....cuz I'm scared....
3) excited....it'll be an adventure...
4) happy....they say as a sag, I'm not going to stick in one area too long...I've been in this area for 27 years....maybe my b-day present to me should be a change...a big one...
I'm doing a dinner at Fo Hoo's September 23rd, a just cuz dinner. Here, choices will be made....anouncements will be made.
To all that matter to me, I love you all, and no matter where I am in the world, or with who...I will love you all, always. Unless you really piss me off. Then, I won't hate you...but I won't love you either.
I'm going to bed...I'm going to sleep on these thoughts....think about it too...and tell me what you think....
So, here's my thoughts....Dean, I won't put any pressure on you...if you want me, I'm yours....if you want me in Edmonton with you...I'm there....but if I don't feel right about it....then maybe I'll move to Calgary then. I've been to both city's....and yes, Edmonton doesn't have a whole lot to offer me...entertainment wise. It's that general area I think I want to be in....mostly for the travelling. Ontario, kinda bores me....I've checked out all I want to check out. Now, I want to see Alberta....BC....Saskatchwan. Can't do that from here. Do I want this thing with Dean to work out...hell yes! Do I think it will? Who knows. I just know, where ever I move to, I want there to be people I care about, and who care about me, around. Ontario, I have all the people here....Edmonton, I have Dean...Calgary, I have Mel, Wes, and Jill. But in either Edmonton, or Calgary...it's only a few hour drive from the other.
I was watching a show sometime (sadly, I think Dr Phil) and he told a girl, make a desision...live with it for a week, and see how you feel. Well...I've done that...and here's how I feel...
1) scared....it's a big change...
2) a little apprehensive....cuz I'm scared....
3) excited....it'll be an adventure...
4) happy....they say as a sag, I'm not going to stick in one area too long...I've been in this area for 27 years....maybe my b-day present to me should be a change...a big one...
I'm doing a dinner at Fo Hoo's September 23rd, a just cuz dinner. Here, choices will be made....anouncements will be made.
To all that matter to me, I love you all, and no matter where I am in the world, or with who...I will love you all, always. Unless you really piss me off. Then, I won't hate you...but I won't love you either.
I'm going to bed...I'm going to sleep on these thoughts....think about it too...and tell me what you think....