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I am alive.
Yesterday I had a complete and total breakdown. I guess I haven't been taking my medication, I honestly didn't even notice. I noticed that the bottle wasn't getting empty as fast as it should be, but to notice that, I must have been taking it. But after yesterday, I decided I had to go to talk to the doctor, to do something to keep me from doing something stupid. So I went, and as soon as he heard I hadn't been taking my medication everyday he just shut down and wouldn't listen to anything else I had to say. "You must take your pills everyday." Well yes, I knew that, I am going to do that...but what if there is something seriously wrong with me? What am I going to do while waiting for my medication to kick back in? I don't know if I can survive another yesterday.
Yesterday I had a complete and total breakdown. I guess I haven't been taking my medication, I honestly didn't even notice. I noticed that the bottle wasn't getting empty as fast as it should be, but to notice that, I must have been taking it. But after yesterday, I decided I had to go to talk to the doctor, to do something to keep me from doing something stupid. So I went, and as soon as he heard I hadn't been taking my medication everyday he just shut down and wouldn't listen to anything else I had to say. "You must take your pills everyday." Well yes, I knew that, I am going to do that...but what if there is something seriously wrong with me? What am I going to do while waiting for my medication to kick back in? I don't know if I can survive another yesterday.