The usual lack of work
So I went to register with another agency yesterday - I was actually quite impressed with the guy, he seems very pro-active in ringing schools up, knew which schools locally were recruiting for temp contracts, said he'd probably have me out and working in a couple of weeks - but they all promise you the earth and then don't deliver.
Since September I've had 6 days work. I've spent all my savings that I had so we could get married, I'm lying awake at night terrified of money and jump when the postman comes to the door. Last night I hit the point where I couldn't imagine another day pretty much - totally rock bottom.
Done the ringing around agencies thing again today - "Oh we'll get you out and working Nottingham next week" - I don't believe it anymore. Apart from the Government changes that have killed our work, the other issue seems to be that their local base of work has completely vanished.
I literally don't know what to do right now anymore with it all - I can attempt to claim benefits, but I'll get nothing much at all because of the time I've worked and Carl's income.. plus last time I had to claim was the most degrading, dehumanizing experience known to man - I was actually shouted at by a JobCentre worker for the fact that the schools were closed in the Summer holidays. I'm not mentally in a position where I can cope with that to be honest.
Please God let Lynn ring me back with some work - just 2 days would make so much difference right now and stop me crying myself to sleep at night feeling so useless.
Since September I've had 6 days work. I've spent all my savings that I had so we could get married, I'm lying awake at night terrified of money and jump when the postman comes to the door. Last night I hit the point where I couldn't imagine another day pretty much - totally rock bottom.
Done the ringing around agencies thing again today - "Oh we'll get you out and working Nottingham next week" - I don't believe it anymore. Apart from the Government changes that have killed our work, the other issue seems to be that their local base of work has completely vanished.
I literally don't know what to do right now anymore with it all - I can attempt to claim benefits, but I'll get nothing much at all because of the time I've worked and Carl's income.. plus last time I had to claim was the most degrading, dehumanizing experience known to man - I was actually shouted at by a JobCentre worker for the fact that the schools were closed in the Summer holidays. I'm not mentally in a position where I can cope with that to be honest.
Please God let Lynn ring me back with some work - just 2 days would make so much difference right now and stop me crying myself to sleep at night feeling so useless.