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wow. I'm really an idiot and may have lost the best thing I had.
I don't mean to be.. Marilyn says it's because I have a lot of "feeler" in me. hah nevermind that last bit.
I can't believe it's almost mid april.
I have a job interview tomorrow. I hope I get it. I miss having a job so much. It is kind of what makes me feel like life is real. When i'm not working here I'm not helping myself to feel more like this is home. When I work I'll feel more like a person. hah. I don't like the idea of spending money and just taking money 'out' with out money going 'in'. Kind of gives me anxiety. Plus, I'm starting to run out anyways.
I really want to be in the states right now so I could see one person and really say I'm sorry and how I really feel and what I really meant. It's just not the same over the computer/phone/text messages. It's just not the same.
Why Bible College in Australia? There are tons in America. Tons.
Just kidding a bit. I mean I'm not kidding. But im grateful to be here and to be able to travel and experience what a lot of people couldn't dream of. I really am thankful.
I went running tonight and listened to my Zune. I usually don't run with music I just like to think. It made me run a bit faster and not count my breathing properly which in turn made me feel like my lungs no longer existed and/or forgot to function on my behalf. But I ran more tonight than I have in a long time. It felt amazing. I love to run, it's therapeutic.
I want snow. haha good luck with that, I know.
I don't mean to be.. Marilyn says it's because I have a lot of "feeler" in me. hah nevermind that last bit.
I can't believe it's almost mid april.
I have a job interview tomorrow. I hope I get it. I miss having a job so much. It is kind of what makes me feel like life is real. When i'm not working here I'm not helping myself to feel more like this is home. When I work I'll feel more like a person. hah. I don't like the idea of spending money and just taking money 'out' with out money going 'in'. Kind of gives me anxiety. Plus, I'm starting to run out anyways.
I really want to be in the states right now so I could see one person and really say I'm sorry and how I really feel and what I really meant. It's just not the same over the computer/phone/text messages. It's just not the same.
Why Bible College in Australia? There are tons in America. Tons.
Just kidding a bit. I mean I'm not kidding. But im grateful to be here and to be able to travel and experience what a lot of people couldn't dream of. I really am thankful.
I went running tonight and listened to my Zune. I usually don't run with music I just like to think. It made me run a bit faster and not count my breathing properly which in turn made me feel like my lungs no longer existed and/or forgot to function on my behalf. But I ran more tonight than I have in a long time. It felt amazing. I love to run, it's therapeutic.
I want snow. haha good luck with that, I know.