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I've got no good in me for anybody
I've been ruined by the lies I told to everybody
It's so desperately sad that my life has come to this
I hope there's something better than this for me
I used to think I had something to say
But my dumb ideologies gave me away
I keep my mouth shut, but it's always the same
Over and over and over again
Today I am wrong again, but it's not surprising
Once more heaven has forgotten me so everybody
Clap your hands together for me, as I watch my world collapse
Don't waste your sympathy on me, cause I made it all
I'm clinging to my parents for all I am worth but my mam seems to be in her 'pushing everyone away' phases.
I'm too scared to attempt to tell her what the pain (physical etc) is doing to me and my confidence cos she'll just push me away rather than giving me what I need.
I'm sick of feeling like this but am paralysed by the NHS.
xxx