Well...That's Life
So here it is another day another dollar. The weekend was great...All except one thing. I had two friends that had birthday parties on friday night. I was supposed to go to my one friend's party after I went to my friend Nicole's party. But I didn't and I felt really bad. I wanted to go, but at the same time it was a part of my life that is, well, no existant right now. I have alot of mixed emotions about the whole thing. I'm not sure if I want that life back or not. Should I?? I mean there were alot of good times and great friends, but at the same time, was I as important to them as they were t me? If so... why haven't I been told why I was cast aside? If they were such great friends why did they all follw the heard?? There are a select few that have remained freinds with me but most I'm not sure of. That makes me sad. I feel alone and empty. At leaste the one person who was angry with me has been civil, it's everyone else that has been childish, including myself. I wish that they would allow me to make it right, to earn thier trust back, and to show them that I'm a new person. O'well thats life I guess. Maybe someday....but not today.