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One of my New Year's Resolutions this year was to meditate twice a day for 20 minutes. I've kept it up, but now I take weekends off. I think that helps ward off the frustration of not being able to do something that seems so simple: keeping my attention on my breath.
Honestly, it's scary how much thoughts invade. You realize really quickly that you can't control them. I can't go five seconds without being distracted, let alone 20 minutes. The main thing is once you notice your attention's gone off the breath, to keep bringing it back, bringing it back, bringing it back. But it would be nice if I could adopt an outlook or emotional state that would stop the thoughts from arising in the first place. To that end, I try to tell myself things like, "Everything is as it should be," but so far I haven't had a lot of luck; thoughts keep arising. (That's right, I just dropped a semicolon on your ass.)
I'm gonna stick with it though. Even with the difficulty (which is natural from what I've read), I've noticed some positive changes. Maybe a little less reactive, my temper's less likely to flare up, a little less anxious. Don't think I'm getting soft though, lest you force me to go all ghetto semicolon again.
Honestly, it's scary how much thoughts invade. You realize really quickly that you can't control them. I can't go five seconds without being distracted, let alone 20 minutes. The main thing is once you notice your attention's gone off the breath, to keep bringing it back, bringing it back, bringing it back. But it would be nice if I could adopt an outlook or emotional state that would stop the thoughts from arising in the first place. To that end, I try to tell myself things like, "Everything is as it should be," but so far I haven't had a lot of luck; thoughts keep arising. (That's right, I just dropped a semicolon on your ass.)
I'm gonna stick with it though. Even with the difficulty (which is natural from what I've read), I've noticed some positive changes. Maybe a little less reactive, my temper's less likely to flare up, a little less anxious. Don't think I'm getting soft though, lest you force me to go all ghetto semicolon again.