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Ok, now that I feel better... I'm alright. Just frustrated, in more than one sense of the word. I miss Mike, I miss Drake, I miss being able to call people from my house, I miss WORKING PHONES... GRRRR... I'm ok, I really am... I just need to vent and I don't have anyone to vent to. I mean I do, but I don't want to put people through that because I get really upset and sometimes cry and I don't want to cry infront of people. I don't want yell at people, that upsets me and makes me feel bad. So I hold it all in and make a pretty face all the time and am social... when really all I want to do is scream!
I am not a social person by nature. All this socializing is killing me. I just don't know what to do with myself and I don't handle stress well and I don't adjust to new things well... so all this crap is catching up with me and the more stress I have the worse I react and I'm really trying not to piss people off and make enemies but its too late for that, I've already pissed at least one person off.
Dont mind the rant... I'm just in a bad mood and venting here instead of to some poor persons face. I'm getting therapist out here. I really need some stress management. Cynthia doesn't do it. She says come talk to me any time but when you do she rushes you out of her office like she couldn't get rid of you fast enough. I dunno, its people like her that piss me off. I can help you as long as you ask for it... PSYCH!! Whatever... I don't know. I need to cry... I really need to cry... but I won't let myself... I hate crying. Especially if someone can see or hear me. So I refuse to do it. ARGH... I dunno... MIke's been trying to get me to cry, especially when I'm stressed because I'm so close then and I just won't do it. I can't...
I dunno... I just needed to vent a little. Stress is getting to me and I have all these things I have to do for school... academically and financially... Oh well.. I guess I just have to breathe.... hahahaha...
yeah. Call me if you want. I'll ttyl
WR3rj'TNKLDNF A[RH1-23LAHKFO aowfhowensldhowentw
t wetopqewhjsdklfh a oaiwehoq eowei htklhdfoiash aiowebrweo;thdlkfnalk fawoeirhoweihawdkfh aweiotrweqi rhf;fhopawehi foawieh oweih owehkt kdnfk;shcip dch vmn cao;weirhoqw3iethrkmncvniafh
Ok, now that I feel better... I'm alright. Just frustrated, in more than one sense of the word. I miss Mike, I miss Drake, I miss being able to call people from my house, I miss WORKING PHONES... GRRRR... I'm ok, I really am... I just need to vent and I don't have anyone to vent to. I mean I do, but I don't want to put people through that because I get really upset and sometimes cry and I don't want to cry infront of people. I don't want yell at people, that upsets me and makes me feel bad. So I hold it all in and make a pretty face all the time and am social... when really all I want to do is scream!
I am not a social person by nature. All this socializing is killing me. I just don't know what to do with myself and I don't handle stress well and I don't adjust to new things well... so all this crap is catching up with me and the more stress I have the worse I react and I'm really trying not to piss people off and make enemies but its too late for that, I've already pissed at least one person off.
Dont mind the rant... I'm just in a bad mood and venting here instead of to some poor persons face. I'm getting therapist out here. I really need some stress management. Cynthia doesn't do it. She says come talk to me any time but when you do she rushes you out of her office like she couldn't get rid of you fast enough. I dunno, its people like her that piss me off. I can help you as long as you ask for it... PSYCH!! Whatever... I don't know. I need to cry... I really need to cry... but I won't let myself... I hate crying. Especially if someone can see or hear me. So I refuse to do it. ARGH... I dunno... MIke's been trying to get me to cry, especially when I'm stressed because I'm so close then and I just won't do it. I can't...
I dunno... I just needed to vent a little. Stress is getting to me and I have all these things I have to do for school... academically and financially... Oh well.. I guess I just have to breathe.... hahahaha...
yeah. Call me if you want. I'll ttyl